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I want something to wake up for every morning. It doesn't have to be someone, but I'd like it to be. It just needs to exist. I want to stop disappointing people because I want to stop disappointing myself. I want to stop making friends with the right kind of people who make me feel wrong. I want to find a passion for anything, anything to keep me going. I want to be the girl at the end of the movie who does a half smile and knows everything will be fine. I want total honesty to be easier to achieve. I want to end my life as myself; not as my friends, not as my family, and not as who they always expected I would be. I want the world to be worth living without love because I don't think I'll ever find it. I want equality to exist among everyone. I want stress and exhaustion to disappear. I want to achieve everything I never thought I could. I want someone to understand, anyone.

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Sometimes your life feels like its caving in on you. Sometimes people really do feel like they don't want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death. Saying "I don't want to exist" isn't saying "I want to go die". Its saying "I wish that, for the time being, I could go somewhere and not have to feel". I don't think there's anything wrong with that. And if you don't know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

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