The 1&only Buterflia <3

MAY 3RD, 2011 - 7:45 pm I'm standing on a roof. There's no sound, only silence. The only thing I can hear, is the beating of my heart. I'm standing on the edge of life and death. I feel a hand on my shoulder, A voice whispering. I turn around, but there is no one. The silence is broken, I hear traffic and people screaming underneath me. Suddenly I realize that I'm too afraid. Too afraid to jump, Too afraid to face the end. MAY 10TH, 2011 - 8:00 am I am slowly loosing my will. My will for everything. To draw, to write, to sing, to live. I know I could never commit suicide as my family I could never put in that kind of pain, but at what cost? I love my family so much that I sit here in pain and suffering just so they are happy? I really know I'm not crazy but to who? Myself? Well I know I'm not crazy . To everyone else? They think I'm nuts. I want to slit my wrists and watch myself bleed out and welcome the darkness that follows. Why does that make me crazy? MAY 21ST, 2011 - 3:32 pm I love when I find songs like this. I don't find many of them. I wish I could find more of them. Tegan&Sara - Nineteen and 32 flavors - Ani Dafranco. These two songs no matter what mood I'm in, put my mind at ease and I'm one with the world. I'm at peace and nothing in the world can harm me. Nothing matters to me when I listen to them. I wish I could find more songs like them. ~Love you, you were all mine. Love me, I was yours right? I was yours right? I was nineteen (call me), I was nineteen (call me)~ - Tegan&Sara A little preview into my head if you actually decided to read this. Thanks everyone. ~Momma Buterflia~ Natali r. Katina is the love of my life, she the reason I am still breathing. She gives me reason to fight through my life with a grin. I love you baby!!!! <3 This is to my haters, cheaters, and shit-talkers - (With everything going on in this world, all the people with hate in their hearts,and minds..and still the focal point is the lies about me. You've been blessed by fucking with someone who doesn't give a fuck what u say..but here's my message,hear me out,I'm only saying it once.) FUCK YOU ALL! Love sincerly, Buterflia