23/04/07 - Jack has finished me once and for all and I'm so upset. I want to still go out with him ad he doesn' want a girlfriend that h only sees one a week. Suly e must realise it's hard for me too but I never finished him. It's unbelievable that he's finished me and I never saw it coming. They say theres plenty more fish in the sea but I wanted that on. 10/04/07 - I really feel fate has pushed it's luck on me with meeting the people I have and the arguments I've had. I feel I've really decoloped my personality and have matured because of troubles I've overcome. I feel so amazed to have Jack in my life and to be friends with Jamie. It's so great that I actuallly came across Jamie so that now I have my own radio station. My abitions are slowly starting to change and now I feel I have more paths to follow in life. I just wanna cry but then I wanna scream foir joy. SO many mixed emotions and I'm struggling to seperate them. I hope things will soon fall into place and this sum off all my problems had just got harder, mix emotions into this equation. BUt I'm sure I'll figure things out pretty soon. Jamie has made it so much easier and I'm glad he acted the way he did although at the time I felt it was the wrong decision. I can't wait for things to move on but I don't want them to in a way. 8/04/07 - Todays its Jamies birthday and we were pranking and we pranked my dad and my mates. We had a big birthday show and I had an argument with Vicky over some quite racist things that were said. I got banned and so did she and now I'm left upset with the things she said. Jamies forgiven me but I'm still upset with what I did and how I acted. I shouldnt have reacted like that but I still believe Vicky was out of order. Jamie has dumped Sophie so it changes the tables once again I miss Jack so much and I just wanna cry. I'm going to Bursa in the morning so I can't wait for that. I just miss Jack so much! I wish I could really speak to my worry people and take my worries away and the same with my problems. THeres more I Want to add but I think THat would push Jamie away further than he is already. It's getting too much. ALL these sums are adding up and none are subtracting the problems. 1/04/07 - April Fools Day and I wish everything that happened today was a fool. I made friends with Jamie yesterday and now I kinda fancy him but I have a boyfriend. It's so annoying because I really like him and he has a girlfriend too. I'm so confused but he won't talk about it. I hate it being on my shoulders all the time. I can't do anything about it. He's so nice but that just makes it harder. WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO?! 27/03/07 - Stupid girls at school are doing my head in. You can't trust anyone and rumours spread like flu spreads in an enclosed enviroment. Rumours that are completly fake and eveyone believes them, even though they came out of ****** ********'s mouth. Why can't people stop bullying. Because the bullied become bullies and they get in trouble. Mr *** is getting involved which is the last thing I want. I'm fed up of total rubbish.
