I've been sent away 4 times and now im going again. I'm at shortridge academy. I dont know when ill be back.
I love Myk. I love love love him. I know for sure no one has ever loved someone as much as I love Myk.
I'll never let go.
I love talking to people. Especially my peeps down in Stickydrama.
myk-
i love you more then life and i dont know how i can go on without you.
i've given you my life, you have it, you control it.
i've given you my heart and trust you not to break it.
i've given you love i have never felt before.
i try so hard to make you happy. the only time i've ever lied to you was to make you happy. when i was upset about something i would lie and say i'm okay so you would not have to worry.
i only care about your happiness, even if that means its not with me. i dont want you to think i took advantage of you. but you think that. and i dont know how to show you the fear i live in that one day you will be gone.
i told you one day you would tell me to go to hell or that i made you sick to your stomach. and it happened. and like i have told you a million times before, i am a screw up, a fuck up, and that's all ill ever do in this world. you say theres no such thing as trying. maybe there isnt, but i do know i've been struggling to have you laugh, smile and be happy.
i love you michael.
<3
Sunday, August 24, 2008 10:04:10 PM GMT
I texted you the other day!!! Also, can you share that delicious cup cake on your message I'm starving from mowing and I miss you :(