pretty keizh

What can I say.. I'm a lovable girl, sweet with a devilish side *wink*. I can be the girl next door, or the girl you don't want to take home to mother. I have my times when I can be a bit bitchy, but who isn't, just whenever I am don't cross my path! I am very inquisitive. i like to validate and confirm all the time. i ask so I'd know. I love surprises but hate uncertainties. i want something to be definite but i also want options.. I am slyly attentive. be warned, i see and hear everything even when i'm feigning disinterest :P i may seem to be preoccupied but i memorize and absorb everything quickly. I believe in giving many chances. it takes me a long while to give up on something or someone. yeah, i am stubborn about saving everything, even the unsaveable when in love, i love wholly. until the whole gets broken down into almost invisible-like little particles. until the feeling becomes unrecognizable. until the love is transformed into a different kind. i like balances in nature. no one can have it all. i try to make futile attempts to disprove this all the time, though. tough luck. haha. I have strong faith in the Higher Being and i am confident with my belief. i am an almost non-participative catholic, though i love kids and how they kiss and snuggle and say the silliest things :) especially wen my elmo does it. i used to think that my ideal love story would be lelaina and troy's in "reality bites". i wanted so bad to have what they had but as the title so obviously tells (i was young and idealistic to realize this before... haha :P), something is less appealing once you've experienced what and how it's really like to deal with emotional complexities. things are sometimes better in fiction. I avoid typical arguments. when i feel bad, i either stay away or when bugged, i become very sarcastic I am not a very good organizer. my room is a mess. i like to cram. my sleep is erratic by choice. my food intake is unstable. i splurge on non-essential "want" things as often as i scrimp on the important "need" things. trust and truth are very essential to me. I'd rather be hurt with the truth than be made to feel better with a lie. i love to push my luck and just let the direction of the wind take me to wherever i end up in- with caution, though. i weigh the odds first before i hang loose. I do what i want to do, say what i want to say and think what i want to think. no one else should have to be responsible for my misery or happiness. I'm very active, I love all parts of life, and am proud of who I am. I live ma life to the fullest...I love doin funny and crazy things.. I enjoy shopPinG.. clothes, shoes and bags and pieces of jewelry... I love music...dancing..clubbin..in short I LOVE PARTIES... I have a great n supportive family', i have few people on ma side..who i can trust..n i can call ma REAL friends..huz been there fo me..tru the darkest n Lowest days of ma so called.."LIFE" I have really good instincts about friends. TRUST me ON tat!!!!! ;) I'm SINGLE and NOT AVAILABLE...@ D mOmeNt..tsk..tsk..(juz ask me) ok, now you guys already have a preview of how my train of thoughts work. it's like everything just shoots off from any direction :P no fluidity whatsoever. haha. i just made myself sound like a mess, didn't i? :P This is me....LoVe Me Or Hate Me!