dancerofmisery

Victoria’s my name and Unique is my definition. I am one of a kind and you will most likely never find somebody exactly like me. My life is constantly changing and my future is a complete mystery to me as of now. If you gain a fraction of my trust then I can guarantee you that I can show you the best time of your life. But on the flip side of the spectrum, if you loose or break my trust I can make sure that you life is a complete living hell…so the choice is really yours, what’s your decision?
You can claim to be as unique as they want to. You can change your style 1.000 times and fix your hair in as many styles as you please, but in the end how unique you are truly comes down to who you are as a person. The way I think and the way I perceive things is what makes me the person that I am. I tend not to see the general picture with things and more often the not go way to in depth into things. I over examine everything and tend to be nothing short of a complete perfectionist.

Perfectionism, it is a blessing and a curse in life. While I am blessed with the fact that I have such willpower to change what every I so choose in my life I am also cursed with the fact that that is the only way I can have things. If something isn’t completely going my way or the littlest detail in my life isn’t just so I freak. I am never satisfied with myself or my work. I tend to have a distorted image not only of myself but everything I create and nothing ever seems to satisfy my tastes. I am a work in progress, but I am slowly climbing my way up the ladder to self satisfaction and perfection…slowly.
I am somewhat of a sensitive person despite my harsh and arrogant looking exterior. I may look like I don’t give a shite about what people’s views on me are, but truth be told, I do. The littlest comments can set me off and make me feel horrible for weeks at a time. I am especially sensitive towards comments about my writing and my general life style habits. But despite all of this, I always somehow manage to stay true to myself. I refuse to change for you. I refuse to change for anybody. Have we made that clear now?

I am a generally open minded person. I believe that there is no right or wrong way of being in any given situation. I will accept just about anyone no matter what their race, beliefs or sexual preferences are. You can come to me with the most controversial topic in the book and I will most likely look at it from a more liberal perspective. And don’t ever under estimate my abilities to debate. I may have an introverted front some of the time but I am an Introverted EXTROVERT and if I have enough knowledge on a specific topic I will not be hesitant to debate you on such subjects. I believe that most people are too narrow and closed minded and that we have had too many nonsense morals shoved down our throats for far to long. It may take time, but I believe that in that time we can break the mold and ultimately start over from the beginning. The present may not look to great but the future can be bright if we make it so.

I am going to say this now, today (02.Nov.2008) I am thirteen years old. Yes you heard me, thirteen. Most of you probably won’t believe this, but it is true. But don’t judge me off this, I may be young but that still doesn’t mean that I have nothing good to say. Most people think that I am much older then I appear, and I often use this to my advantage. I find it ridiculous that people find it ok to judge people based off their ages. Sure more often then not it seems as though people my age are immature and ultimately brain-dead, but not all of us are. I would like to think that I am the exception to this. I think we as teenagers are not credited enough for our thoughts…if we are the future then why are we looked down upon so much? How can the future be bright if we as people frown upon it?

<big> My Goals in Life</big>

This is probably one of the most cliché goals of mine, but one of the things I would like to do in life is find true love. I don’t mean just date and sleep around with as many people as possible; I literally mean find that special person. So many people go through life loveless and lonely. I do not plan or wish to be one of those people and I do have full intensions of finding that perfect person and spending the rest of my life with them. When I look at a person I do not look just looks, I look at personality. Somebody could have the nicest bone structure, the most gorgeous eyes and the most gorgeous hands in the world, but if the personality isn’t there then it is basically pointless. I don’t want to be one of those people who gets married just because of physical attraction. I want to find somebody who is on the same level as me that I can relate and talk to…I want to find a soul mate…not just a one night stand.

I dream of being bilingual and learning as many languages as possible. As of now my favourite country is Germany and I have full intensions of learning the German language before I turn eighteen and travel there with friends after Graduation. I have a major fetish with examining languages and their formatting and though it is probably the reason I can barely speak my own…it still sparks and fuels my interest in learning many different languages…especially Germanic languages. My goal is to learn German, Russian, Finnish and possibly French before I die…but maybe I should focus more on learning my own language (English) first before I even think about learning the rest of them XD!

Singing, writing and changing lives, this has been my number one goal in life since I was the mere age of five. Since that point in my life I have always dreamed of being on stage and I have always dreamed of creating something that could change somebody’s life. The biggest satisfaction for me would to use my interest in writing and my love for singing and music creation to give back and possibly change the views of people and possibly save or improve somebody’s life. Music has helped me in so many ways and so have many bands and composers, I can only imagine what it must feel like to know how much good you have done in the world. For some people music and writing are interests…but for me, it is a passion and a way of life. If I were to ever go deaf I would probably end up taking my life, a life with out sound is not a life worth living in my opinion.

<big>The random unorganized chaos</big>

. I have fears of the following- Failure Hospitals/doctors/blood/syringes, Bugs, arachnids, hypnotism, growing old, The dark, drowning/asphyxiation close proximity with unfamiliar people, the sun, loss of privacy, becoming overweight, Jelena, losing my hair/hearing…and probably more.

.Despite some of the above fears, I am huge fan of hugs and I enjoy giving and receiving them. I am a very affectionate person and I am not afraid to show it. Reject my hugs and I will be sad :’(

.I have an extreme hate for the colour yellow. Neon yellow I can deal with, but Yellow is just an ugly colour!

. My favourite band is AFI

.I am trying to learn German

.I am what the world would refer to as a “gifted” child

.I may not look like I can do much…but I am BEAST!
.. .I don’t believe in sexual orientation for myself

. Männlich and Liederhosen are the funniest words EVER

. My favourite movie is “Edward Scissorhands”…but I also enjoy many other films…

.Project Runway ist Liebe!

. I love everything and everyone…but that doesn’t mean I like you.

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So this is me myself und Ich. You can love me for who I am and accept me…or you can choose not to. The choice is all up to you, but trust me when I say, if you have managed to read through and soak up most of what I have said I think we can be very good friends

Ciao Bella,
Victoria♥