hey my name is rain i have 4 pets. i love swimming and reading. i write stories and poems. i have a temper. i want to be in the military (if they take me) if not i have many other things in mind, i am in the process of typing up my first book yes i wrote it ......im anorexic have been sence i was 7 years old i force my self to eat though. my life hasnt been a cake walk but i dont regret anything i went through. it did make me who i am today so why would i regret it. i do how ever want to find a way to be open with myself and the world.. i dont feel much. i have a high tolerance for pain haha. drug users and dealers make me nervous lol. but im learning that not all druggies are bad ^_^ ive always been on my own. there is one that i trust they all have turned against me when they learn of my past or betray me in some way. there are times where i look at people and envy them and there carefree attitudes and i wish i were truly that way. no smile is true same with laughter i analyze it from everyone i have ever met as ive said i dont feel much as for now im waiting till my time is finally up and i can cut away the chains that bind me with out feeling guilty of leaving those that need me ...thats the only reason im still here lol i hate to see others in pain so i take it upon my self to ease it for them. i would rather be someones punching bag than hurt emotionally and trust me ive been there time and time again. ill put my life on the line for those i care about. so there it is people the cold hard truth im dont pretending ill keep my old ways im so much better to be alone than to hurt others so read this and say what u want then leave i just dont care anymore call me a freak emo Gothic or whatever im done hiding behind my mask of stone...........things that piss me off the MOST 1 stupid people that think they know everything 2 people that dont support the troops there fighting for everyones freedom not just urs they dont have to fight but they do 3 people that pretend to be in the military just to get attention and 4 if u hate on people just for who or what they like i have friends from all walks of life that means gays bis and lez also straights 5 if u do any kind of illegle drugs stay the fuck away from me unless u want ur ass kicked people call me a bitch cause i tell it like it is if ur one of those people that think that guess what I DONT GIVE A RATS ASS ....thats all for now