Destiny

"Her"
I'll never be as good as her,
Even when the best occurs,
I wish she wasn't around,
Cause it brings me down,
I wish she wasn't better,
She holds your hand, and you let her,
She broke your heart, and you kept her.
"Untitled"
Most likely, I'll always remember, what you'll quickly forget, And I'd hold your hand forever, Even with all the regret, And thanks for the memories, Because to me they were everything, And thanks for the letters to me, You had me in tears at good-bye, And at hello, I never thought you'd make me cry, But first impressions aren't everything, And lies aren't the truth obviously, I never thought I'd be so fooled, I never thought my common sense would be overruled, And I can still hear you breathe, When you laid next to me, And I can still almost see, Your eyes when we were so happy, Your heart when we were still laughing, And it's unreal that your love is passing,
"Untitled"
Could I borrow your smile? Cause I haven't seen mine in awhile, Could you lend me your hope? Cause it seems I've hit a down-slope, This is the millionth time I've cried, Just the thought of this gets me teary-eyed, I'm afraid I'm all shreds inside, I've got nothing left, and I can't hide, You pick her out of a crowd, Drain the rain out of her clouds, Turn her gray skies blue, She wants everything, When all I wanted was you, Her expensive tastes have drawn you in, Making me want to die again, Her better eyes, They make you disguise, Her expensive clothes, Make you imposed, I know she's pretty, She tells me every time she walks by me, I sit on the sidewalk, Alone and afraid, She never kept the promises, You seem to forget the ones she's made, Jealousy is always an issue, She'll notice, but she won't miss you, No one's words can never make it better, And the tears just keep getting wetter, My make up gets more smeared, My vision gets less clear, My throat is always sore, They forget more and more, I sit here in agony, Drowning in anxiety, it seems to be taking the better half of me,
"Falling Star"
Drown yourself in fear,
Douse yourself in panic,
A long run, but I still ran it,
I still put up with the paranoia,
I can handle the truth,
But I can't face the facts,
The only thing I'm scared of is you,
You're what I loathe, what I hate,
You make me woe, shrivel and disintegrate,
You make me weak, there's comfort when you're gone, You make me seek things I've had all along, So full of hatred, so eager for your leave, I don't think I can make it with you standing over me, You're like my shadow, following me everywhere I go, You're all my surroundings, now I hate what I know, You make me wonder how I let it get this far, It's the whole night's sky, with one falling star, It the very simple truth in all your lies, It's the lightning that comes after gray skies, One simple small phrase, Can make your life change, It could be hello, It could be goodbye, Just so you know, I think I wanna die, Its your lungs that push out your sighs, It's your heart that pumps out your blood, It's water that washes away caked on mud, It seems it's always something else, That takes away your grief, It's sitting on the shelf, Right next to your notice of leave, It could be laughter, It could be tears, It could be your happily ever after, To face all your fears, But there's only one thing that'll push and strive, There's only one thing that makes you feel alive, That one thing is always gonna be you, It's yourself that has to make it and pull through, You're the only thing that'll get you very far,' Even if you really are just a falling star
"Unfortunately"
Seasons change, but the days don't, Try to stay sane, but I know I won't, It seems I can't breathe, Without you beside me, It seems I can't think, Without being free, Cry, sleep or die, Let out a heavy sigh, Take a deep breath, You'll still wonder why, It never makes a difference, The wounds never heal, Though what I have is sufficient, The pain won't seal, Letting go is hard, Holding on is harder, So naive, But it makes you smarter, Sing a song, Dance a dance, Live in the moment, Take a chance, Rewind the time, I'll try to be strong, It seems I can't when you're gone, I'll try to move along, Sing a happier song, You'd prefer her over me, Even when I'm the best I can be, I'll forget our history, I'll fall to the ground, Regretting our mistakes, I'll wear a thorny crown, To take the pain away, These burns resemble you, Everything you've put me through, These cuts are screaming your name, This panic resembles the pain, These blood stains won't wash away, These scars will remain, Hemorrhaging at the seems, This is what you mean, You're the blood in my veins, You're the clouds when it rains, You're everything I see, You follow me, You're the words I speak, You're what makes me weak, You're the comfort I seek, You shrivel me away, make me meek, The pipes are busted and broken, And you're what leaks, You've brought me to my knees, Made me wish I'd fall over and cease, But this time I won't let you do it, I won't let you take over me, You've robbed my bravery, My vision, and now I can't see, Robbed me of my sanity, And now I can't breathe, Holding on to life's little edge, Wishing I could just dive off the ledge, I stand here, confused, Contemplating a blade and a fuse, Maybe tomorrow, I'll forget your name, Maybe I'll wake up, And I'll be sane, You've ate at my soul, Ripping out my heart, leaving an empty hole, These words don't seem like much, They cover my whole life, But they're never enough, They sharpen my knife, Peeling off the rust, And I wish I was comfortable in my own skin, I wish I could be me again, I still admire anyone who isn't me, I still desire to lay here lifelessly, I still hear all the strife over me, They don't know what to do again, But I just don't know what to tell them, I can't bear to decide, Whether I should die or hide, I can't share my life, With someone who won't confide, I still cut with a knife, when you won't take my side, I still need air, To take a deep sigh, I'm still living, I'm still here, I'm still crying, I'm still sincere, I'm still sighing, Insides dying, Insides empty, Hearts gone, Hearts broken, Still; I long, For an answer spoken, Just a phrase, To bring happier days, Just a few words, To forget this impulsive urge, Take a knife, slit my throat, Take my life, you've taken my hope, Make me wise, I'll still loathe, Make me strive, I still woe, Make me happy, I still know, I feel like shit, but at-least I can feel, I wanna die, but at least it's real, I can't control my mind, I can't control my head, And I've felt like this time and time again, I just wanna rewind, Forget all the words said, I could create a cure for heartbreak, I could figure out what it takes for normalcy, But I don't have the strength in me, Crushed inside, unfortunately
"Grim Reaper"
You've ruined my trust, You've made me afraid of lust, Because of your careless action, All for your satisfaction, Your selfishness, Has made me restless, No one will believe, No one will see, No one will care, About the scars you've left on me, I've tried to let my emotions out, I've put up with everyone's doubt, I've had enough, I've had too much, You can only bend until you can brake, You can handle it 'till it's more than you can take, My soul has been terrorized, My feelings have been despised, There's only one way you can escape yourself, But there's a lot of ways you can escape the hell, And I'm only writing this to release the feelings, I've tried not to fall, and put my hands on the railings, But this staircase is tall, and at the top, it's still raining, And this is me; Young on the outside, Dried up and old on the inside, Once a little girl, So young, so naive, But then you took half of me, Ignoring my small cries, You were the grim reaper in disguise, Anxiety has overcome me, And no one sees what's become of me, And I wish I could breakdown, But there's too much at stake now, I was young, full of light, 'Till the grim reaper came and stole my life.
"Blistered Burns"
Apologies never made it better
You cut me deep
and it's gonna hurt forever
Life was never that bad
when you were around
I wasn't really ever sad
I never felt like falling down
All those words you left unspoken
They leave me lying here with my heart broken
We can't be over
when there was so much there
We can't be done
There was always so much care
Your name is something I'll never forget
and us is something I'll never regret
I always think of every little word you said
I never thought they'd leave inside of me dead
When everything turns to shit
you're supposed to sift through it
And I don't wanna move on without you
And I don't wanna forget what we went through
Words cannot describe
how much I need you by my side
I never thought I'd live through the day you left
But I'm living, and I'm fine
It's hard to think that you're okay without me
It's hard to think that I'm not gonna be the last thing you see
I've been turning in my sleep
praying you my heart to keep
I've been crying
I've been dying
I've been slitting my wrists
I've been pounding my fists
Never to return,
you left me with this blistered burn
Never to believe
I was all you'd ever need
And I swear someday you'll miss me
Someday you'll wish you were with me
You'll see that no other girl can fill that empty hole
That missing piece to your soul
That craving to share your heart
When you know it'll last from the start
My heart has a lock, and I'm not letting you have the key
So you can have some blistered burns
Just like me
"See"
I always thought death would be easy, But a part of me died today, And it wasn't at all that way, The hardest thing I'll ever have to endure, And now I'm sick inside and there is no cure, I've tried plenty of times, I've made many rhymes, I've counted the stars in the night sky, I've made tears until I can't cry, Everything we knew, Everything we said, None of it will bring you back again, And I don't see how it could have been fake, Falling for you couldn't have been a mistake, I've made wrong choices, I've followed wrong voices, I wish you could see the way I see, Like nothing is perfect, Except you and me, All the time wasted, I don't think I can face it, All the laughs shared, We were happy and scared, Afraid it wouldn't last, But happy to escape the past, But now we're back, Where heartbreak is everything, And tears come endlessly, You said you loved me, Now I can see, How that can't be, And it's insane, But it's remained, Since you laid next to me, And you saw what I see.
"Something Good"[Old one]
Everything I've ever owned, And anyone I've ever known, It all goes to shit, and I can't handle it, it was in the palm of my hand, now its a grain of sand, something little, something stupid, Something good, and i knew it, I had the world at my feet, and now its just another secret to keep, Something to fade, something never made, something that grew, something that i knew, something i would keep forever, because that's how long I wish we were together, I would have thrown away, anything of mine, I would have gone astray, from anything I'm deprived, I would tell any lie, I would fall from any sky, I would fall in any grave, to keep all the promises that I made, For anything thats good, anything that you've ever had, keep it in your heart, don't let it go bad, For anyone that you've ever loved, give it all your trust, For anyone that you've ever hated, It was what you made it, Love comes with agony, and that's what took half of me, Trust comes with agony, And that's what took the laugh out of me, I would break down any wall, to have your love again, I would take any fall, To have your trust ascend, What we had, Was something good, And what we'll never have, Is something we should,
"I've Tried"
I've tried
About a million times
To get you out of my mind
Like something you did
Just wasn't right
And something you said
Will keep me up all night
And I'd be happy
Just to sit here and think of you
Think of all the things you've helped me through
I've tried
About a million times
Not to cry
When I hear your name
Not to give up
When I think of all the pain
All the people in the halls Pointing and laughing
All the people in the halls
Inconsiderate, just passing
I've tried
About a million times
Just to put up with this shit
Just to sit around in my sorrow
And drown in it
And I wish I had some pride to swallow
I've got nothing
My heart is hollow
I've tried
About a million times
Not to plan my own suicide
But something seems to keep me here
Like I've still got something to clear
And that something
Is always you, my dear

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