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About me: I am not what anyone considers 'normal.' I don't smoke enough, drink enough, do enough drugs or preach enough to fit into boxes. I'm too vulnerable to be considered a badass, I'm too strong to be fragile (in general), I'm not white enough to be white, but I'm too Americanized for people to consider me other ethnic. I know snippets of too many languages to be ignorant, but I don't know enough to be brilliant. There doesn't seem to be a midway to fit into. I'm too thin and have imperfect skin so I can't be mainstream attractive, but not thin enough to be, say, a model. I'm too lighthearted to be taken seriously by anyone I like, but too serious for the fun ones. I'm too much of a poet for the unknown and too much of an unknown for the poets. . I am not normal. I do not fit into a box. I am professional with my work and exuberant with my play and that's not supposed to be the way it is. In this country people want someone to be either all business all the time or all punked out and worthless. I'm a person. I am multi-dimensional. I am currently on a major spiritual journey that no one but me really needs to give a shit about. contrary to popular statements, people don't want a professional in business who isn't afraid to be a person as well. Everyone wants boxes. Everyone likes boxes. People think that these little gray boxes are all that we need and all that we want and we should just work for bigger ones. I'm starving in my little gray box. I'm starving for love and starving for prosperity and starving for real health and starving for fulfillment. I have to get out of this little gray box that I never wanted and never needed and am not comfortable inside. .. ..