I believe we are all normal in our own ways.
Our likes, dislikes, loves, and loathes make up part of who we are. I have always enjoyed being myself. I've never changed for anyone, (although they have tried) and I do not believe I ever will. Im rather shy, however I can get along with anyone as long as they are kind to me, (just give me a bit of time, im certainly not a "social" person, living solely in me big spookhouse in the midst of nowhere; with just the ghosties and my stuffed animal friends for company.) Nice people are few and far between these days so its very lovely to come across them and I definately enjoy being one as well. I have a lot of love to give- although it may not seem like it at times. I love my family and the few friends I have so so very much, and I am truly thankful each and every day that I have them in this wretched void called life. I can't say I have never judged anyone, but from what I have been through and how I have felt, I always try to be as courteous as possible. I respect those who respect me; the same goes for loyalty. Its there until you fuck it up. I am as extremely complex as I am simple, as paranoid as I am calm. I am a HUGE "Munsters" and Charles Addams fan, and an avid horror fan as well. I collect boots♥, corsets♥, antiques♥, books♥, stockings♥, art prints♥, cobwebs♥, knives♥, stuffed animals♥, and, unfortunately, bad memories. I've been through a lot in my life, for my age. I have always despised the stupidity I have experienced with society and the mainstreams patronization of difference. Needless to say I have grown up in a very closed minded area; quite in the middle of nowhere actually. However, To quote Martin Luther King Jr. "In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies; but the silence of our "friends."
I like questions; so anything you wish to know, just feel free to ask.
I must admit that I have recently developed a hatred for the assholes out there who have nothing more to say about themselves other than 4 paragraphs of "you have to be particularly like this and that to befriend me" or the ever so irritatingly common "if you don't like how I am you can just fuck off," leading into "I do what I want and get what i want when I want" shoved into their 'about me' sections and down my throat. Seriously, do you want everyone you meet to know what a fucking cunt you really are?
"Do you always think this much, Charlie?" "Is that bad?" "Not necessarily. It's just that sometimes people use thought to not participate in life." "Is that bad?" "Yes."
"When we are forgotten; we cease to exist."
"Life is a hideous thing, and from the background behind what we know of it peer daemoniacal hints of truth which make it sometimes a thousandfold more hideous." ~H. P. Lovecraft
</a>"Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it."
"Character and personality are always a "work in progress", and I can deal with that, but I disdain the superficial and hollow. There are so many things that weigh on the human Spirit. Most of them, in and of themselves, are insignificant or nearly so. However, you can be crushed by feathers if there are enough of them. People find themsleves depressed and despondent..lost....by an accumulation of things; circumstances, other people's behavior, plain old bad luck and the "rain" that's bound to come into every life. It doesn't have to be an impossible task to dig yourself out, and yet the totality of factors can be so daunting that it's so hard to even think where to start. There IS a way. Let no one tell you that you are hopeless."
"It's kind of like when you look at yourself in the mirror and you say your name. And it gets to a point where none of it seems real. Well, sometimes, I can do that, but I don't need an hour in front of a mirror. It just happens very fast, and things start to slip away. And I just open my eyes, and I see nothing. And then I start to breathe really hard trying to see something, but I can't..."
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." ~Mark Twain.
</a>Show me a hero and I will write you a tragedy. ~F. Scott Fitzgerald
"Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are dangerously close to wanting nothing."
"One need not be a chamber to be haunted; One need not be a house; The brain has corridors surpassing Material place."
~Emily Dickinson
"Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me ~ The Smashing pumpkins.
</a>"Do not do to others what angers you if done to you by others." ~Socrates
"We are weighed down, every moment, by the conception and the sensation of Time. And there are but two means of escaping and forgetting this nightmare: pleasure and work. Pleasure consumes us. Work strengthens us. Let us choose." ~Charles Baudelaire
"The concept of dreaming is known to the waking mind, but to the dreamer there is no waking, no real world, no sanity; only the screaming bedlam of sleep." ~Stephen King
</a>"You will be astounded by the degree to which a human being can waste his life away."
"On the floor I am more at ease. I feel nearer, more part of the painting, since this way I can walk around it, work from the four sides and literally be in the painting." ~Jackson Pollock
"She wears her tears on her blouse
confused and racked with self-doubt
she stole the keys to my house
and then she locked herself out."
~Placebo
