JanellSkywallker193

My name is Janell Elizabeth Kramarczyk, I am 19 years of age, But have a personality of a kid. Its a blessing and a curse. All the time I'm getting lectured people telling me to act my age; to grow up. I don't ever want to. I'm sure you all have sat down and pondered, and came to a realization. Reality is hard to face. When I look back at my childhood, all I remember is smiles, and day's of pure bliss. Never having to deal with life, but at the same time enjoying it. Enjoying yourself of every minute, everyday, every week, every month and year. When we mature, we, as people, slowly change according to our environment, evolving. We conform to society, and it's standards. We grow up in times of Sin, Famine, Meaningless Wars. We all strive to be noticed by the world, whether it's through Fame, Money, or Power. And for what? When our stay in this beautiful yet ugly world/planet is short lived. When we grow older, we start to see that the world really isn't a Happy-Go-Lucky place we thought it was back when we played Tamagotchi's, Legos, or our Game Boy's, with that infamous little Blue or Red game cartridge displaying bits and pixels of data on the screen, with high hopes of collecting 151 Monsters. We see that it's filled with Hatred, Sorrow and Animosity. We learn the saying "We hurt those who love us, and love those who hurt us", is very accurately portrayed. We have our ups, and of course our downs. During these times, we always feel the need to have someone help us out of that mess, and we are sometimes let down, and falling down an even deeper whole, we trust them not to, yet bound to happen. Other times they will help you, and be the wings that guide you. This is the way life is lived. Then one day you will reach the end of that narrow and tedious path. Let us pray that you will take the easy way out. When you are lying in your bed, a shell of what you once were, or for the more unfortunate, the cold concrete, slowly feeling your life seeping through bullet holes, or having it choked away. Asphyxiation, Disease, Drowning, Burning, Starving, Dying. Look back at your life, and if you could never think of a sad moment in it, Happiness, Jealousy, Anger, every Emotion, every Fiber of your being, then you cannot truly say that you have lived your life to it's fullest. This leads us back to what was stated earlier. Life is but an endless cycle. We can only imagine why we were put here, Religions, Beliefs, Science. Whatever you choose to stick by, think about this: In the end, what purpose do these serve? The answer: We, as humans, need something to confide in. Some higher power, or logical explanation. We are left to only communicate with one another and come up with endless possibilities. This puts us back to that one dire question, we all try to answer throughout our lives. I guess you could say that Life has it's own "Life". At a span of millions of years, it has no intentions of ending anytime soon. No matter what, life will go on. The human race will not progress at the rates it's going. Because we can't all get along. Fights, Hostility,Racism,Hate towards another for their color, sexuality, personality. This brings me back to the beginning of my thoughts. I hate facing reality. And in my daydreams, I can picture a perfect place. Where all of these things have been eradicated. Notice how I used the term -Day Dreams- I didn't use -Dreams- But at the same time I did, because it is just that; merely a dream. Only spent awake. ALIVE. We waste about One-third of our lives sleeping. I want to spend every moment that I can, living it, even if that means dealing with all that it has to offer. My name Janell Elizabeth Kramarczyk, I am 19 years of age. and that is all you will Ever need to know. (: ♥