I am 16, i wish I knew what it meant to be me. The more I think about it, the greater my headache burns. With my inner complexity, I suppose you can describe me as a ball of rubber bands. Twisted; tangled. All my thoughts are intertwined with every part of me. I don't have a solid core. I'm filled with gaps and holes throughout the course of my body. "I feel like a perpetual smudge. My lines all curve. I tend to connect the wrong dots." I believe there is something more extraordinary out there; maybe there is not a word for it, but I will find it. I find beauty and harmony in balance. It bugs me when people that are upset complain to others that they wish to be happy. Wont' they feel happy once they get over that sadness? Won't there be this overwhelming feeling of happiness once all the sadness is gone? If that sadness was never there, you wouldn't be happy because you wouldn't understand that to become happy, you need to overcome the sadness. Think about it. Think of any happy moment if your life. When I’m feeling down, or upset, I often don’t wish to be happier. Of course, there is still that nagging voice in the back of my head that screams ‘just be happy’ but I can’t. I know that there is a reason why I am unhappy, and I must embrace it in order to feel happiness. I guess some people could call me crazy, not minding both extremities. I don’t mind evil. I don’t mind sadness. I don’t mind being unloved. I don’t mind feeling used. Of course, I can’t say I don’t feel gutted when these come around, but I accept them. Perhaps I should stop rambling. I could ramble on forever about my thoughts and ideas.
I dont show so dont ask. I will kick you if you ask or my mods will kick you.
http://www.stickam.com/disturbedking aka micah is fake just letting everyone know he goes around to rooms without a cam saying sweet things to girls to try and gain there trust so they will eventually show and he can record. my guess is he is sum old man wanking to young girls. simply put have him take a pic holding a sign with ur name on it or have him get a cam and make you a sign ty and be careful
~My Idol
