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you just wanna do xtc<3
COME IN &&TALK FUCKERS<3
Im 18.
Im wise beyond my years, but you have to get to know me to realize that.
Im like 18 going on 35.
I fear aging.
I cried on my 18th barfday because i felt sooo old.
I dnt ever want to grow up.
Im all about having a feel good time.
Im bi. &&I dnt mean bi like, im a dyke &&im too afraid to admit it.. &&I dnt mean bi like i makeout with girls to turn guys on.. I mean bi as in i like MEN &&WOMEN with NO particular preference.
Dnt tell me to pick a team, im bi fer life.
Ive always known i was bi.. fuck i had an open relationship with a girl in 2nd grade.
I DO A LOT OF DRUGS.
One more time so we're clear, i fucking do a lot of drugs.
DNT TELL ME HOW TO LIVE MY LIFE.
Im a lot of things, but i am not a liar.
If you lie, you dnt deserve to have friends.
Its a medical mystery that im still alive.
Im a high school drop out with no job/future.
My life story is a tragic comedy.
I have no parents.
My papi died when i was ten &&i really couldnt care less.
My mother.. was never fit to care fer another human being..
Ive been on my own since i was like 12.
IM NEVER SERIOUS.
Im probably the most sarcastic person in the entire universe.
Sometimes i sound sarcastic, even when im not trying, so you just have to trust me when i say im being real.
I LIKE DIFFICULT PPL.
Im sick of meeting normal ppl.
I live in the moment.
Im pretty much down fer fucking whatever whenever.
I have killer insomnia, except after i take a break from a binge err if i drink.
I cnt be alone.. i need CONSTANT attention &&adult supervision.
Im a bad influence.. sometimes.
I only have like 2 straight friends, everybody i know is gay.
My name is elleXTC, &&im addicted to cuddling.
Your knees go weak, when i simply speak.
Did you hear that im sooo charming??
Reverse psychology works reallyreallyreally well on me.
I fucking tell it like it is, so deal.
Im kind of a cunt.
Im reallyreallyreally shallow.
I dnt fucking get naked on cam, so dnt even ask me to show.
I dnt like anyone until they give me a reason to.
I guess i sound like a real asshole, but i like to thnk im really just more honest than most ppl.
My only real goal in life, is to have my name remembered by anyone.
THIS SONG IS MY LIFE:
I'm feeling rough, I'm feeling raw, I'm in the prime of my life.
Let's make some music make some money find some models for wives.
I'll move to Paris, shoot some heroin and fuck with the stars.
You man the island and the cocaine and the elegant cars.
This is our decision to live fast and die young.
We've got the vision, now let's have some fun.
Yeah it's overwhelming, but what else can we do?
Get jobs in offices and wake up for the morning commute?
Forget about our mothers and our friends.
We were fated to pretend.
I'll miss the playgrounds and the animals and digging up worms.
I'll miss the comfort of my mother and the weight of the world.
I'll miss my sister, miss my father, miss my dog and my home.
Yeah I'll miss the boredom and the freedom and the time spent alone.
But there is really nothing, nothing we can do.
Love must be forgotten.
Life can always start up anew.
The models will have children, we'll get a divorce.
We'll find some more models, everything must run its course.
We'll choke on our vomit and that will be the end.
We were fated to pretend.
