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Something You Should Know About Me
Typically I don't tell anyone on stickam a goddamn thing about me. I think that's where I always went wrong to start. So instead of being one of the hundreds of people on here pretending something, hiding from something, or putting up a front... Lets get to know each other. Shall we? I don't feel the need to give you my real name at this conjuncture so... You can call me X.
People like to guess what I'm like when they look at me. They're always wrong. You could never guess what I'm really like by looking at me. I'm a really complex person. I like lots of different things and different types of people. I can hang out with anyone as long as they aren't definitively ignorant and obnoxious. I'm really laid back and mellow for the most part. I do a lot of observing. I'm always learning and absorbing through sight and I never get tired of looking at the world. Even when I go inside, I just watch it through a box that plugs into something. I like movies, hanging out with my friends, going out to eat, shoes, hair and body modification, travel, camping, the beach, painting, sewing, taking pictures, cooking and baking, collecting, antiques, flea markets, incense, laying in the grass, getting high, making people laugh and animals. I have a dark sense of humor but I can lighten it up for the benefit of family members sometimes. My dream job would to be somewhere in Mortuary Science but I'm currently just trying to make it as a hair stylist. Sometimes I have bad days though like everyone else.... I'm a bit... eccentric. I look at things differently than other people do and that pisses them off. I believe dreaming too much of the person you want to be is a waste of the person you are. I embrace my quirks. I've lived a pretty crrrazy life up till now.. But that stuff doesn't define me. At least I can say I lived my life. I experienced things. Eventually, I quit being criminally insane. Despite my whole life having thought I didn't deserve anything but the terrible cards I was dealt, I still hoped that maybe I could find some happiness for myself. Even if that was living in a box on the freeway. I didn't want to believe that misery, addiction, abuse, and poverty was all life really had to offer. ... I had a melt down. I stopped answering phone calls that I knew wouldn't get me anywhere in life. I went a different "route" then and met a guy who literally changed my life. Funny thing is... we already knew each other. But we were seeing each other for the first time. The transition was rough though. I was living with a guy(nothing else) I was dating for about 3 years. He didn't like this "new guy" much, who was also contracted with the military. It was hard for me too.. So when things got serious and he asked me to marry him... I initially said Hell no. It wasn't the navy that scared me more than getting married did. The second time he asked me about a week later... and after some serious talking with friends... I said yes. Turns out I'm more afraid of digressing back to the old life I had than anything. Well, second to passing up a chance at love. I think I chose well.
Tidbits... Hum.. We make mead here at home. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's honey wine. Arguably the oldest fermented alcoholic beverage in the world. Definitely one of the most famous. There is quite a devout following of people who love mead, make mead, drink mead, etc.. I'm a renaissance lover so mead is right up my alley. We haven't gone corporate for now. It's just something to have fun doing and enjoy the fruits of our labor. I've lived in many places while hubby was in the service. From Washington state to Florida. It's had it's perks for sure. I've been to the places in the The Twilight Saga written by Stephanie Myers. I've gotten piss wasted in Port Angeles. I've seen the ocean on the west coast finally. I've seen the beaches of Florida. I've been to Hollywood. I finally got to go to Disney World, for one whole week. Just random things. I've gone to casino's and bar hopped in Seattle. I'm not all about paradise or the idea of it... but I love to travel and see the world.
My husband works part time and goes to school most of the week now. He's a culinary student. The smell of jet fuel to the smell of exquisite desserts and food is something I've taken quite a liking too. We talk about having a bar and grill type place later.. doing a married couple catering business.. but I still want to have my own thing too. While I can...
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