The Guy Next Door..

I'm everything girls and guys dream of, But I'll be your worst nightmare. Talk Is Cheap HONESTLY Your Words Of Negativity Amuses Me, Yet I Can Use The Same Weapon Against You HOWEVER Half The Shit I Say Is TRUE. SPIT YA GAME..Choose Your Battles Wisely.. Well I'm diffrent then most people would describe as "Habitually Correct" I'm diffrent then most guys I'm composed of "remorse" I have more "benevolence" in me than a saint people just don't wanna take the time to get to know that side of me. I'm stereotyped on several occasions as being an outcast, a loner, A "NOBODY" when in reality I am quite the opposite. Don't let me come across to you as a conceited individual. I tend to put others ahead of me, And I have my own intricate way of thinking about our world, I like to keep things conceived within my subconscious, If someone rubs me the wrong way I have my way of letting them know it and letting it be, But of course like most uneducated,subnormal,underdeveloped waste of life that you are you can't just be the better person and show mercy, You constantly have to put people down to make yourself feel inferior, your a foolish, overbearing, boot licker, who's ego is bigger then your "personal package" if you know what I mean. I'm not going to start punching people and failing school just to show how bad ass I am. I focus more on school and less on personal physique. My brain is bigger then my muscles "Yeah Thats A Good Thing" I focus more on intellect and less on the make up I put On my arms to hide the steroid marks "Relax guys it's that new thing called criticism" What I'm trying to say is I have my whole life to look "Hot". Why not finish school and get a good education, Then I'll decide on where I want to go from there. I was brought up in a hateful environment, HATE was a virtue, Daddy had several problems and mommy was too busy to worry about anything, Mommy says she loved daddy but she sent him away to rehab, Daddy said I was the problem and Mommy disagreed, Every time we visited him we meant the world to him, Which "OBVIOUSLY" was A figment of his imagination, It was merely his way of sounding "SOBER" which one again "STILL" remains a complete distortion of the facts, He always had a violent side to him which always remained inconspicuous. Grandma was the only one I could turn to for emotional support until she went non-existent in 2006, From that day I was all alone, Life's a struggle and a somebody always needs another somebody to turn too in there time of need... Me on the other hand it was just me myself and I... I've Been Kicked When Down, I've Had My Heart Crushed On Several Occasions, You Wanna Step To Me? Go Ahead I'll Embarrass You, I DARE YOU. . . Namecalling to me is pointless call me a faggot call me a queer call me a whatever the hell you want, I'm beyond the point of being hurt over stupid shit that comes out of somebodies mouth, I have alot of friends so honestly try to talk shit about me to them, Your going to sound like the dumbass, My friends know me and they know how I do, Hurt anybody I love and I will make you miserable, I'll lack all sympathy for you and destroy you =) You want it I got it ;), I've never had a problem with people not liking me because of my sexuality but if you have a problem with it then walk away and forget you ever even knew me, My theory is if you hurt someone it will come back to you, Karma's a bitch, I'm chill with EVERYONE you have my respect from the moment I meet you, fuck that up and your done,.. I'm that small suburban town boy with a insignificant resemblance, I'm blunt as fcuk so be prepared for my words too you, I'm not smart but I'm not dumb, I'm a dude and I wear coverup if I get acne, I hide my flaws just like you and its what makes me beautiful, I'm not gorgeous but I'm not ugly, I'm skinny but I'm not anorexic, I actually eat a lot, I'm not perfect, I have a lot of determination to my life, I have dreams, I like girls and boys and mommy and daddy hate me for it, I wanna save people, I wish I was a superhero, I wanna make people happy, I wanna take there frowns and turn them into happiness, I wanna see kids grow up and be happy, I wanna see a world without pain, I want a world where people won't kill each other over stupid things, I want to see a world where people don't kill because of race,orientation,sex,or religion, I want other countries to get along with the United States and just end it, Past is Past, Keeping hate alive keeps it lingering and it never dies, I wanna see a world where girls can actually keep there virginity until there 14, I wanna see a world on where guys throw out there checklist of girls they wanna bust in and ACTUALLY do something with there lives, I wanna see people off the streets and stop selling drugs too 12 year olds, Its not a living and you know it, Putting your life on the line is not a proper job, Stop steering kids in the wrong direction of life with your stupidity, They don't deserve to grow up knowing your ways of life, You fucked your life up don't fuck theres up too, You think I'm wrong but sit and think about it tonight I'm RIGHT, I wanna see a world where people can live healthy, without AIDS..HIV and Cancer and Leukemia, I wanna see people make an effort to make this world a better place not only for us but for our children and our childrens children and our childrens childrens children and so on. I'm everything you dream about but I'm your WORST nightmare I've wanted to give up on myself for so long, But she always kept me holding on, and even though she's not with me anymore, I can still feel her hand brushing against my cheek. I love you Grandma.. Im not a myspace celebrity, I'm not someone popular, Im not mister PERFECT, I'm just a normal teenager, meeting new people on myspace, Getting his heart broken on a regular basis, I get pimples, I get bad breath in the morning, My hairs not flawless, I don't have to show off my stomach to the world to get attention, I have no body what so ever, I'm past the point of being broke, My parents fight every night, And I sit in my room and pretend like everythings fine, And daddy hates me because I like boys.. BUT IM HAPPY MOTHER FUCKER. AND YOU'LL NEVER BREAK ME SO GIVE UP. "Beauty Is Skin Deep And Fades"