iambeccastaples

I'm Becca, Obviously. If you're reading this congratulations, you're alive. If that's not a reason to smile, I don't know what is. I'm a huge contradiction-insecure, confident at times, foul-mouthed, nice, shy, boisterous, nerdy, innocent, trainwrecked, volatile, resilient, legit. I hate who I've become. I dont like complements I will disagree with you. I have imperfections. I'm emo scene. I'm a camera whore. Gauges . I live in insanity and I breathe chaos. I believe existence is such an unfair concept. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. Just floating around, listening to everyone, and holding all my feelings inside. People say I'm shy; but i just need something to talk about. I'm honestly a nice person, unless you give me a legit reason not to be. My guards are up because I've been let down too many times. I'm very sensitive and naturally emotional. My heart and my brain never agree. What a shame. I wear my heart inside my chest, under my ribcage, not on my sleeve. Who gives a shit about learning useless stuff you just forget a few days later. Seriously. I find most things difficult, && everything seems pointless most of the time. I analyze every situation cause I'm weird like that. I'm more comfortable talking to strangers, then people I do know. I normally don't want people around me. And I never seem to get attached. I despise liars. There's no room on this planet for them. Chances are, I will never fully trust you. I'm absolutely terrified of spiders. Losing people scares me even more though. I don't like when people come in my life, and then just walk out. If you walk out, I won't follow you. That's a promise. I don't like feelings, They're too messy, complicated, and confusing. The life I life is undecided. Sometimes I feel as if life is too much to handle. Too complicated. So many times I end up wanting to give up, but I never do. The wishful thinking that my life will get better is what keeps me alive. Alright I think I've said enough.