ituesday

I'm so over-rated... WTF do you expect from me, I mean for real! I'm only beautiful when I'm fucked up. Beauty isn't everything but apparently it is to me or I wouldn't have to keep up with my addiction. Like honestly I care less what you have to say or think. I'm more than one person inside, and thats what makes me more individualized from being like everyone else.. I'm not traditional what so ever and no matter how farfetched my hypothesis, philosophies, or theories may sound, they're mine and they won't every in this world be yours and thats what makes them so special, because I own those words... I'm being for real when I say your words have no effect on me what so ever because I'm only here to care about myself... It may seem I have a low self-esteem at times, but I don't choose to use for any other reason except for when I simply cannot handle the overwhelming feelings that occur unexpectably because of my disability. I feel suicidal more than just often and when I use, I become more out going and I want to live. I begin to appriciate what life has to offer for me and I just can't do that sober, I really can't... If I can't be accepted for who I really am, WTF kind of world do we live in..... Fuck all of you, I'm here for me. The sooner everyone accepts that, the less harder it will be seeing me dressed in drag!!! BITCH!!