As her lips kissed my forehead I cried realizing that this would be the last time I would be seen my body lay ther lifeless the needle had done its job one last time chasing the dream I had gone to far the drugs had been just enough.I cried knowing I was dead and watching her as they closed the ambulance door,my life a meaningless amount of failures one after the other and as I fell further into it I realized I was alone and always would be finally I gave in and the dream was no longer a dream I was dead my prayers answered with one flaw as my life slipped from my grip she walked in the room to see me one last time alive I told her I loved her and reached out to her my body went limp and my last breath slipped from lungs as I felt myself slip into darkness I hear her say "I love you " it echoed in my head as I lay there and heard her cry for me .I hadnt heard tears shed for me in what seemed to be a life time, but had caused many people to cry. This was diffrent for some reason I couldnt leave not now but had no choice the drugs to strong for my strung out body I felt everything all at once ,no more pain , no more hurt ,I slipped into the darkness and as I did I heard her say "I love you ,please dont leave me "I felt her lips on my forehead and everything went dark I heard them yelling as my eyes opened I.V. in the first thing I heard is he's back we have a rythm then a blinding light and pain so much pain why did they do it why did they revive me everything had finally happened and I had died ,no pain it was remarkable and yet here I was now in more pain than I had ever felt what gave them the right to bring me back when all I wanted was what I had done .I flatline again and, again they get my heart started I lose reality for a while ,I hear her say I love you dont leave me open your eyes please ".I feel her lips on my lips and I wake up it still hurts I found out she Overdosed that night and now every night the last thing I hear is her saying "I love you ,Pease dont leave me ". It wasnt fair how could she ask me too stay when she was going to leave me</div>
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