keylow

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Member Since: 08/08/08

Last Login: 08/09/08

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It seems like my life is driven by something unknown. I never know where I'm going, or how I'm going to get there; all I know is that I'll be there when the time is right. I am a smokescreen and you are a fool; I am the sky, you are so far below. Most times I don't make sense, I speak the words that come to mind as they come and decipher their meanings later. I have more intelligence than I give myself credit for, though I tend to not use it. Call me what you wish, but I prefer Audrey if we don't know each other well. My real name is only for those who have known me for a long time or whoever I consider a close friend. I spend too much time on myspace, and I think I should probably just delete and never come back, but myspace is my connection to music; music is life.<3 I have a few friends, but fewer best friends, and they know who they are. I am everyone's best friend. I judge people, but I tend to ignore my judgements. I've done a lot of bad things, but saying I regret them is childish and doesn't help anything. I am very mature for my age, but I am so far out there at times; say poop and I'll probably laugh for hours. I take a lot of pictures and delete about two thirds of them, then hide the rest of the half left in a private album. I like symmetry and nonsymmetry, but at different times and places. Sometimes I look at myself and realize that there's something beautiful there, sometimes I want to tear it apart and start all over. I like wearing clashing and chaotic colors, and I like the comfort of full-black. Bandannas are my new obsession, I tend to steal them whenever I feel the sudden urge to be dangerous; other times I run with scissors to fulfill that desire. My feet are always sore from all the walking, I never sleep enough, and there are too many decisions to make everyday. As soon as I can, I'm getting away from my family and going wherever the present opportunities will take me. I do not believe in god, but I do believe in a higher power. I like a boy, but we can't be together, and it's utterly pointless to visualize the day we won't have to hide our feelings. I'm learning to cope with the things that I can't change in my life at this moment. It's hard sometimes, and it gets me down every now and then, but bit by bit things are getting better, I can feel it. Things are changing, and have been changing ever since the 6th grade. I know that I've got some growing up left to do, but I'm hoping I get to keep the spark of childhood I've felt in very few moments of my life. I don't want to be a part of the scene, or the moral majority. I don't want to be another cog in the killing machine; I want to be whatever I will be. I want to experience the time where no one else's opinions matter to me in the slightest way, the time where I'm happy with what I am and what I've got, and fine with the fact that I can't have everything. I want the day to come where I know that I can trust the people I've let in completely, where I can love the person I want to love and not be in fear that others will destroy something so beautiful, where no one can ever bring me down. Later today, tomorrow, next week, next month, next year... whenever it happens, I know it'll happen. I think I'm beginning to understand the intricacy of change that comes with growing up and responsibility; I'm going to grab life by the horns and ride til I die.

kilo loves khs<3

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