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I don't want to see your *insert blank here*; don't show me. I love making friends; so talk to me. I don't bite..hard :D current obsessions: the color pink, mis-matched sox, my amazingly fabricated pillow, taking naps, smiling, my ring, my mixture of perfumes, my confirmation necklace, walking barefoot, dancing, automatic loveletter, being happy, sketching, spontaneity, apple juice, braiding my hair, the dead poets society, summer mix tapes, e.e. cummings, and say anything's cover of 'got your money' DETAILED ABOUT ME I realised that the stuff I've written on my profile doesn't really describe me. It's either a few basic facts, or a pile of random shit that doesn't really do me justice. Not meaning to sound immodest or anything, but I just think I'm worth more than a few barely thought out words and phrases scrawled across a webpage. I'm not sure what I plan to write here, so if you don't like it, well tough. I think it's just going to be some views I have on some situations etc. Anyway, let's goo. If I'm honest, I have so many questions; too many to be answered in a number of lifetimes, let alone a mere one. It saddens me because I don't think I'll ever find the answers. It feels strange to me that, on average, I have just over half a century to make my mark upon this world. I don't like it. I don't like the fact that soon I won't be here, and neither will everything I've come to love. I hate the fact that there are so many things I'm never going to even come close to experiencing. I think we waste so many years of our lives, watching our youth and inquisitiveness wash away, learning things second hand. I think we gain more from the hidden aspects of school (morals, norms, values, manners etc) than we ever really could from whatever subject. I disagree with pretty much the whole system, honestly. I think we'd be so much better off learning things by our own experience, like they used to thousands of years ago, before our race found technology and fucked up everything. I'd gladly trade the internet, my iPod, televisions etc to go back to the simple days, when all you needed to get by was a knife or two, a horse, and the clothes on your back. Or maybe I just read too much. I get so involved in stories full of kingdoms and weaponry, dragons and magic, that I sometimes begin to believe it's real. But who are we to say it isn't? Just because we can't see it, it doesn't mean it doesn't exist. I'll admit, I have a very vivid imagination, but I'm a writer, so what do you expect, really? To be honest, I feel the same way about religion. I don't believe that any are truly correct, but I accept that other people do, because who am I to judge their beliefs? I think the worlds a fucked up place when people start wars over something as hypocritical as religion. I'm not saying don't believe in it; if it answers your questions and it feels right for you, then I respect that, and I envy you for having that kind of belief system – but I don't think anyone really knows. My minds as open as anyone's, but I think you have to be wilfully ignorant or mind-numbingly arrogant if you cannot see how someone else's views may be also correct – even just slightly. I mean, for fuck sake, every religion is based roughly upon the same rules and values; thou shalt not kill, etc. Who's really to say whether it was Jesus or Allah or Buddha or whoever the fuck else made it so? If you're willing to accept the words of a book that's thousands of years old, and base your whole life around it, and conform to something older than the streets around you, then fair enough. But I'm not. I also dislike those people who congregate around the fountain in town and preach at you about Jesus and his 'deeds'. It's just fucking rude, to be honest. You don't see Atheists walking around with flyers, ranting about how religion is a pile of wank, do you? By all means, rent out a community hall, start up a religion study group – you can preach as much as you fucking want in there; just respect other people's views, give them the freedom to disagree with you, and they'll respect yours. I feel like I've gone a little off topic here – although I didn't really have a plan in the first place, to be honest. It's never easy to find the right words to tell somebody who you are. I'm Meghan and I'm a junior in high school. I've lived in the same town my whole life, and sometimes I wish I lived somewhere else. I've been sketching and drawing since I can remember, I also play guitar, and I'm never going to stop that either. I basically listen to music 24/7, and yes I'm obsessed. My camera is almost always with me. Music and photography is a way i can express myself, its who I am. I like to write, but i wish i was a better writer. I've played softball for about seven years, I still play and I'm on my high school team. I love the beach, I live across the street from it. I don't think I'm ever going to learn my lesson about using enough sun screen. I'm not sure what I want to do when I grow up, most likely something creative or in the artsy business, and I am striving to be a Pixar Animator. I have no clue what i would do without my friends, they mean the world to me. They're here for me, and I'm here for them, as always. I don't like change, and I don't like when people change.I wish we didn't have to worry about what other people think, or about first impressions. We judge each other too much based on the wrong reasons, but I could honestly care less about what you dress like, look like, who your friends with, what you listen to, etc., just be yourself. I'm pretty good at not hating anyone, I just have those little things that bug me. I want to travel the world more and experience different things. I think about things more than you think I would, and I'll over anaylize things, which isn't always good. I wish I didn't do that either. My family used to be more strict on religion, so I used to go all the time when I was little, and I was involved in it. I believe that you never know what you have till it's gone, so be grateful about the little things your lucky for. I'm afraid of losing people, friendships, time, etc. I also believe that you learn from your mistakes, and that makes you the kind of person you are today. I cannot wait until senior year, I already have senioritis, its severe. My life consists of hanging out with my best friends, taking pictures, drawing, and having a good time. It's always awesome get to know me :DD you wont regret it invalid_tag |
