Kitthana

"Fighting myself in the shadows, I approach myself in disarray. I turn my back on all that is me and run towards what I’ve always been. I lay at your feet like a broken doll, singing a tuneless song. I cry to you for fear of love, and love you for fear of sadness. My insanity will swallow you like the dark tunnel of our souls. I admit I’ll never want the sanity that you all yearn and beg for, I’ll follow my chosen path to the end, dying only the second I begin to live." By Kitthana



People who know me personally can tell you this from experience, I'm not emotionally stable all the time. I have severe ADHD and ADD and I can go from being happy and hyper to being pissed and annoyed. No I'm not bipolar, but things that should effect people very little are the things that hit me the most and the things that would make people go insane are the things that seem to concern me least. I'm backward, mixed up, and confused. Got it?





I need someone who can understand that though I don't want to be controlled I need to. One who can look past the physical and realize that it is still important. Someone whose heart is almost as big as his brain. I want someone whose definition of love is as distorted as mine....someone who can calm the rage in me and turn it into joy. Someone who knows that danger can only love danger and that a toy is sometimes the master...I need a ruler....a lover....a fighter....a soldier....a martyr....I need perfection in it's cruelest form and in it's darkest hours.







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