I have a bigger ban list than Kiki Kannibal. 3.9 out of 4 times I go live, I'm going to be private with Salena. Call me a whore, say what you want, I'm not private to take my clothes off. And when I am live, I rarely ever go on cam anymore.
If you are going to judge me by my views, I had an old account that got banned, it had 15-16k live views, and it had 3k profile views. Add it up<3
My friends make me happy. I dont want anyone new in my life. For a while i want everything to stay in its place. I want the people who are here for me now, to stay here, not leave me like everyone eventually does. I need stability. I need you.
I am on website that has caused so much pain and misery in my life, for these people: Mariah, you are possibly my best friend ever. You have been here longer than anyone else has ever been. I have to say that no matter what, one day we will meet. Through all the drama and all the shit you have stuck by my side. You mean more to me than you will possibly EVER know. Baby<3 Kristen, you are my therapist. You are one of the very few people who I can count on not judging me. No matter what I have done to you, you have never given up on me. And I will never give up on you, no matter what. Dyke<3 Curtis, you are my role model. Just from watching you, i have become more myself then I ever have. I hope that you never leave the interwebz. I couldn't wish for a better role model<3 Kay, you are my hero. You have saved me from myself. You do and always will mean so much to me. Daddy<3
Not only these amazing people, but people like:
Brenda.
Brenda, you are my conscious. You help me realize what I am saying is wrong. Ilysm<3
Brandon
Brandon, you are my tranny xD! You are like an older brother to me, the cool one who you can picture sneaking a beer to you. I love you.
Salena
Salena, you are my partner in crime. No matter what I can count on you being here for me. And no matter what I will always be here for you. We have such messed up sleeping schedules, and I love when we are up at 4 in the morning, watching any number of shows. You are possibly the best partner in crime ever<3
Ana
Ana, you are my best ever irl friend. You are the reason i even signed up for stickam. I have to thank you. Through the time that I signed up, I have been able to meet so many amazing people. You are so amazing. And some day I will be able to go back to Florida and we will hang out.<3
Marisa, you are my celeb pr0nz watching partner. I love you xD<3
Saturday, August 23, 2008 2:50:03 AM GMT
because my life is starting to crumble down even more. however the fuck that is possible because i thought it was fucked up as it was. but apparently not.
Friday, August 22, 2008 8:21:24 AM GMT
i'm sorry to say this but i will be deleting my stickam account and i won't be using aim anymore.
i'm going to miss you so much.
Monday, August 11, 2008 9:35:16 AM GMT
Im over it all....Im over myspace...Im over Stickam.....Im just over it ALL......
The drama...The "FRIENDS"....
Im tired of laying my self...MY feelings on the line for people whole Im lead to believe Care about me....
Im Deleting this account...Im Deleting my straight account....Im deleteing my stickam account....Im Getting rid of aim, yahoo....msn....ALL of it....
Delete My Numbers From your fucking phones...Delete anything that has to do with me..my songs...my Lyrics i dont fucking care...Hell delete this message after you read it....
Im getting rid of this thing I call a Social life....Or Lack there of......
Im not going to Kill or hurt myself...Thats the easy way out....
I Just want to be forgotten...By ALL of you......ALL OF YOU......
Ian
