nobody understands me people have gotten close but just as one cannot achieve perfection, one cannot fathom how much they misunderstand me my name is lauren elizabeth self i believe i have the last name "self" for a reason my whole life i have learned that i need to only depend on my "self" everyone has let me down except for my "self" i have been through so much more than you can imagine. i am a conceptual whole made up of complicated and related parts. in other words... complex. i guess a good way to sum "me" up is im like the wind, always there but never can you grasp "me". i shy away from people when i fear they are getting too close to me. this is a flaw, yes, but this flaw has protected me numerous times. i never let anyone get close to me in fear that they will crush me. i am quick to shut myself away from the world when i feel vulnerable. im the perfect definition of my astrological sign,a gemini always in search of something and never satisfied thanks to my ever-curious being, i get bored easily with everything, people especially. i get annoyed easily or change my mind too fast, people always are coming or going through my life. there is always a moment it seems to me where i truly am infatuated with someone and am completely content, i really like a person and want to love them, it always works out that they push me away when i am really falling for them. i felt that i really loved someone once, he didnt love me back and i knew it. its funny once you stop caring about someone how they magically gain feelings for you. when your finally over it when you literally have a PIECE of you RIPPED AWAY from your "self" not figuratively, but literally. read between the fucking lines. in conclusion, i thank him for making me stronger further building up my walls, for that im thankful Sometimes people build walls not to keep people out, to see who is willing to break them down... so come break them down... this is me, explained