Kiss Me. Kill Me. Set Me Free.

Dear Everyone, When i die, im not going to worry about the shit i had. the amount of money i earned. i just want to know that ive helped someone overcome their issues.to make sure that they dont have the self confidense isuess ive struggled with for years upon years. all i really want is to help someone. to make them feel like theyre worth something so much greater then they think. to let them know that everyone has a story. someone out there knows exactly what youve been through and they know that you can overcome it. ive been through alot of things in my life and ive delt with them in a kind of dark and destructive way . but ive also learned and grown from them. Each and every one of those mistakes and battles ive struggled with,opening my eyes up to alot of things and preparing me to go out in this demented world and the struggle it causes. i want to be able to tell my story without being judge and help someone who can relate to me. been insecure just like me, whos herd nothing but letdowns and insults like i have. i dont like knowing that somewhere out there there someone who feels the same way i did, its a bad mindset to have especially if you cant escape from it, when your forced to break your way through it all alone. when youve lost all hope and given up on yourself. when you hate everything you stood for, youre too afraid to be you because of society and its standards, too afraid of being made fun of just because your a tad different from what theyve grown acoustom to. i see how girls and some guys are handling the chaotic things in their life that are too hard to face alone..too hard to face at all really. they just need a little bit of guidance, it doesnt have to be a friendship or a relationship or anything really, they just need to vent, to let it all out without the fear of rejection or idolization. they need someone who knows the struggles theyre facing. somone whos been through it and that can tell them how to overcome those demons that they face day in and day out just someone to helpp them see that they are something and theyre beautiful. the worse thing is to battle it alone. to keep it bottled up inside. dont be afraid to shine your light and be who you wanted to be. words do hurt, more than youll ever know and emotionaly its draining. keeping in emotions is like a ticking timebomb and you never know when its going to go off. what was tears you shouldve let out turns in to anger and aggression, and dissapointment turns into depression and self hatred. ive seem one too many of the most talent, beautiful, and artistic people hold themselves back and not go after their dreams because they had no confidence, its been completely torn apart by family, by friends, by classmates, siblings. Who knows where they've been.what they hear. how they feel inside, the thoughts racing through their head. the dark places they'll go from time to time. i just want them to know theyre not alone. they can achieve anything. you can do the things people swear you cant. you just have to believe in yourself, love you for you.prove them wrong. know you can become something so much greater.something they never expected. You have to have the drive to reach for the stars and have the strength to catch them in the end. remember everyone has a story, some are willing to tell. some are forced to keep it closed and locked up. it took me long enough and i starting a new chapter. ive developed this new side of me. and im tired of not going for my dreams because my fear of rejection or the fear of proving those people right. sometimes we just need that little ray of sunshine to keep us going, that rainbow after a storm to keep us believing in ourselves. open up your mind and let it tell itself. everyone comes from somewhere. everyone has a story. you just need to take the time out to listen, not only with your ears..but with your heart . learn their struggles..their insecurities. once you experience the way this person is and get to know them on a personal level youd understand why they are a certian way. truthfully you can never judge a book by its cover.they say that evil has a way of manifesting itself into beauty..so that means that the most insecure people are the ones that look perfectly happy, perfectly fine, but inside theyre screaming for a way out a way to be free. you see we're all broken inside, all of us and its about time we mended this. it took alot of time but im absolutely shocked and proud of the person ive become out of this mess. we learn .we invision. we conqour. and we grow. thats what finding yourself and growing up is all about.. - Marina♥