 Layout Generated @ StickamStuff.com Goal for October: Take Notes I don't want a relation ship or someone to fuck so if thats the reason for adding me then don't bother. I'm OK with my self and I don't need anyone else that is suppose to make my life better. Main reason for deleting my old myspace in the first place. Also, I'm not interested in meeting any new people. The ones that I know now are enough. So if you don't know me already, which isn't accountable of what you heard or what you seen, then don't add me. My Beliefs..... Funny how we can be inspired by things. I was standing on wood smoking a cigarette outside of my dad's apartments thinking of how fake life is and how only "we" can only truly love ourselves because we will never know one hundred percent about others for we can never know a person entirely. We are not with a person forever like we are us. It is physically impossible to live inside another like we do us. As I was standing outside I stared at the tree's that stood in my line of vision. I realized that one of the tree's branches was broken. Dangling uselessly and prepared to fall at any given time. Trees are a lot like people. For one, there are different kinds. Some grow apples and other fruits when some don't grow anything useful. But the broken tree was sat out individually like I feel I am. There were a lot of others that surrounded that broken tree, but that one was different in its appearance. I am that tree because I myself am different from the others. I have a different shine, like no other “tree”. I operate like no other human mind can perceive. My thoughts could never be understood by another. Not because you could never understand me entirely, but because I myself can't explain these thoughts. In my mind I argue with interpreter 1 and 2. One hammers the thoughts while the other tries to explain them. A part of me strives to be normal but the other realizes that the "normal" people don't try to seek the truth in us; when were alone we are different, disturbed, and interrupted. That shows that we are not a certain stereotype. When the people are in the real world, surrounded by others they feel they need to fit-in; to feel normal themselves. They feel they need to be loved by others and possibly everyone. Of course I know that love is overrated. It is fake and selfish. Like when you see hopeless teenage girls wanting a boyfriend/girlfriend or any other person, really, that has the same desires. They are being selfish because they want to find "love"; someone who is supportively going to "get them" and know them 100 %. Love is only an illusion that we create to feel normal and satisfied in this world like all other "feelings". Just in case you don't know, feelings don't last forever. We can never always be happy, sad, angry, satisfied, depressed, unsure, miserable, and all the other emotions we come by. All we need is ourselves. That’s all we have to know for our entire existence. I know what you’re thinking. How the fuck does this have to do with who he is? Well really it has everything to do with me. It has to do more about me then most of your pathetic ideas of who you are that try to describe who you think you are and how people see you. Most of it is just plain original anyways and you get bored of it. This is the mind of me, Morgan; known and seen only by my sexual orientation when really it doesn't even began to describe me. This is me and the thoughts and opinions that I seem to come bye each day. Rather you like them or not is none of my concern because really I could care less. I am used to taking in your opinions day in and day out. And Me.... For one, I have an exquisite amount of acquaintances as well as friends. I have a line between the two of them. If you say I love you Morgan I want say I love you back unless you are my Friend. I care about my acquaintances but do no love them. Sorry. Plus I would hate to make you look stupid. I'm not going to sit here and tell you about how my friends mean the world to me and how no body gets me because, best guess, you don't care. I do not stereotype anyone. Everyone is different including me. I am probably the most accepting person that you will ever meet. I seriously do not judge or look down upon. I do feel sorry for the shit talkers though. They really don't know what there missing. I love fan mail and adore hate mail. Don't get mad because everyone looks at me as "Morgan" and not just another daily face. Call me a faggot, I love it! Oh, and I think it’s a complete waste for a person to live by any type of religion. We were not brought here to live the same way or a certain way but to seek are own individual way in life. Nothing else. Me being honest, I do tend to start a lot of shit but not meaning to or thinking. Morgan can not stay away from drama. He carries it like a purse! If you have any sense at all in that pathetic mind of yours then you will get the picture. Do you find me mean for not replying to your myspace messages? Especially the ones who have "met" me over myspace. Well maybe I am mean because wats up/omg/lol/lmao/U/Ur/btw/Your hot/rofl/ ain't gonna cut it. I'm tired of reading all the same lame messages that make me see everyone the same way. I want something that intrigues me. Something that makes me think. Think of that as a challenge. Don't kill your self if I wouldn't. Don't take me seriously. I appreciate your time. Thank you.
I am working on my GED and will attend college in the spring of 09. </i> </h3></h5> |
