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I'm 17 years old but act and look 15 (Y)(H) I can be a real asshole at times. I dislike my mum a crapload. Because she's a bitch who calls me useless and futureless all the fkn time and I'm sick and tired of her. I've decided to label her as an unrightly criticising, stubborn, depressed, egocentric, retarded hypocrite. But I don't really care about her anymore and I've learnt to ignore her 80% of the time. Lately I’ve started to get irritated by a lot of people without a valid reason. A real good friend (Niqi) made me realize that I can’t stand people who are insecure and try to hide it, because it reminds me of my past and I hate thinking about my past because I mainly have bad memories. I also can’t stand people who think they’re better than others and only want to hang out with “cool” people. Another thing I hate with a passion is people who do contradictive things. For example they say they hate sluts or people who use drugs but then still hang out with those people because they’re “cool” too. I hate them because basically I have my principles and generally I just don’t feel like getting involved with people who go against them. I’m not ready for a true relationship yet, I don’t know how to handle them and I never know when I really am in love. Sometimes I even get the feeling I’ll never fall in love with anyone (and I don’t really care that it may sound emo.) I tend to build up relationships confidently, to then see them fall to the ground. Also, I love to help people who are feeling down, but unfortunately I’ve seen those people finally leave me behind just because they don’t feel like I’m important anymore. At first I'm usually introvert but when I get to know you, I open up a lot, if not too much :x When people compliment me I: 1. Don’t believe them. 2. Don’t care. thing possible to break you down so badly I can't stand homophobes, especially the ones who go: "Ewww gays" and stuff like that. But lately I've learnt just to completely ignore them. :] I've been in: 
I like gossiping at times and I had it backfiring at me more than once, so I do take responsibility when something leaks. I only see my real friends at weekends or holidays. Which is really painful for me 'cause it means I feel lonely far too much when I'm at home or at school. But, when I'm with my friends, they always cheer me up so much that I wish I could stay with them forever, which I can't, unfortunately ._. I look down upon people who criticise and prejudge others. At times I can be extremely stubborn and ignorant. I can't say I have a hard time trusting people anymore. When pissed, I tend to say things without thinking. You may either hate me or love me, there's nothing inbetween. My biggest wish is to move to England or another place when I'm older, because basically I'm addicted to speaking English and I hate living here Nobody tells me what to do or what to act like. Perfection doesn't exist, there's only Photoshop. |
