I only smoke and hide away my fears. I keep the tears held back as much as possible. I dont let anyone ruin me, or i dont let it show. i show anger. i show haterd. im just a person. dont expect the imposibble from me. im not saying you cant do anything you set your mind to. dont twist my fucking words. im just saying. i have my own boundaries to cross, but to cross yours makes no sense. why should i worry what you expect of me? i always think that question over and over. but i get the same answer everytime. i only care what they think because they are the ones that care for me. yes i do drugs. does that make me a bad person no. i am a lesbian. does that make me a sinner. not in my religon. i do believe in god. i just can only believe so many things until i start to question wether its really true or people exagerated over the years past. no story stays the same from one person to another. you might argue and say but it will still stay the same if its in pen on paper. wrong. because back then there were no such things. do question my actions. i am my own person. the one person who learns the hardest way possible because i know in the end i will be successful. the one lil girl who use to roam the woods killing snakes to protect her lil sister. im that one percent of the world where sleep aids do not make me tierd they make me hyper. ive been a different person my whole life. and i use to just want to fit in. but no that i no why i stand out, i want to keep it that way. its this lil thing you call my independence.
I wanted to send my deepest apologizes for pissing you off in your live room on stickam.com. I did not mean to be disrespect by any means and I hope that this meeting between us won't effect further communication in the future. You seem like a lovely gal and I would love to converse with you further. Please accept my apologizes and I hope you are doing well.
