This video pretty much describes me.
I'm really sweet, though, I promise!
When I first got this account, I never intended to use it as much as I do now.
I'm live all the time, and if I'm not, you can find me around, I'm sure.
I'm fucking everywhere on here.
I can't promise that the experience in my room is PERFECT, but I can promise that I'll try to make it fun for me, and if it's fun for me, it'll probably be fun for you, too.
My name is Chelsea.
I know who I am...and I'm proud of it.
You probably know who I am, too.
I grew up, for the most part, in a city called Naples along the southwest coast of Florida.
If you live there, you probably know me...
and if you don't, you probably know who I am,
and if you don't, you've probably heard the stories...
So, let's clear the rumors from the truth.
First of all, you don't need to know how old I am, but I'll tell you anyway.
At 18, I'm legal enough to steal anyone's boyfriend,
but I'm pretty short for my age. I love being short and I think it goes along with my personality, since I'm really outgoing and energetic. Sometimes I'm too fucking nice. I know that, okay? I tend to let people take advantage of me. I wish I could be totally 100 percent honest to everyone's face every second of the day, but I am too nice to do that...but I'm working on building a thicker skin.
I'm constantly cold...and I officially shiver at 73 degrees. (indoors.)
And yes, they're real. (my eyes.)
I'm moving soon to Denver, Colorado.
It's bound to be a change, but I'm sure it's nothing I can't handle.
Or manipulate.
Or master.
Give it twelve months.
I doubt I'll even need that long.
Everytime I get into a relationship with someone, something or someONE interferes and ultimately fucks it up.
I've lost countless people to shitty situations.
I'm single for now.
I dare you to change that. ;]
You probably won't be able to handle me.
As for my history...
I used to go to BCHS...I was Advanced Women's Choir.
Now I'm enrolled at East Lake High,
and I sing in the Advanced Choir there.
I love singing, and I wouldn't trade my voice for anything. (Sorry, Little Mermaid.)...well...except maybe a better voice.
I miss my old program/director, Mr. Peterson, to death.
Going to Italy with you all was an experience I will never forget for as long as I live.
It's hard to sing in another choir without you guys. :(
I'm extremely insecure, but I get by.
I don't hide anything about myself
because I don't have to.
There's nothing that I wouldn't want you to know.
I'm not saying I'm perfect, but I'm the best person I can be...
and for that, I'll never apologize, if I were to ever apologize for anything anyway.
No.
You can't call me.
No.
I won't send you nudes.
Don't bother asking me.
This doesn't mean, however, that I wouldn't pose nude
in a magazine or for suicide girls or something.
Don't question my decisions.
If I like you, I'll tell you.
If I love you, I won't.
I'm a highly addictive indulgence.
A guilty pleasure to some,
a trophy and conquest to most.
If you have a conversation with me, chances are, you'll have a hard time deciding whether to cover your mouth from laughing, or cover your drink because I might actually be serious about poisoning you.
I'm a tease to the highest degree.
You'll kill yourself trying to score with me,
but in the same token, it would kill you not to try.
Don't fuck with me.
You'll regret it.
I'm not saying I'll kill you.
I'm saying I'll destroy you from the inside out.
I have a way with words that can get me inside your head.
It can also get me inside your heart.
If I ruin your life, it isn't intentional.
You were caught in the crossfire of something much greater - the pursuit of my pleasure, my happiness alone.
You are a pawn in my game.
Don't be flattered.
Don't be insulted.
Nothing I do is personal.
I don't trust you.
I don't trust anyone.
It's better off that way.
I keep my friends close
and my enemies just as close.
I'll kill you with kindness if I have to,
but don't think I don't have the guts
to tell you something straight to your face.
I do makeup.
I sing.
I entertain like it's my job,
and hopefully, one day, it will be.
I say what I mean, I mean what I say.
I don't lead people on.
I'll tell you something straight up.
I'll make you feel awesome if you deserve it.
I'll make you feel like shit if you deserve it.
If you know me, you know me.
There's no big mystery to who I am.
I'm exactly who you see on here.
I'm exactly who's walking down the hallway at school.
That's me.
I don't have an image to uphold.
My reputation is ever-changing.
I don't have a "clique" that I fit into
because I defy every boundary.
I love to laugh. In fact, I laugh at everything. Even serious situations. Probably something else to do with my insecurities.
Call me conceited.
Call me a slut.
I dare you.
Call me whatever you want.
Chances are, you'll still be wrong.
Believe it or not,
I'm NOT sexually active.
My entire role as "audiowhoregasm" started as a joke.
I'm probably the least promiscuous person you'll ever meet.
I'm flirtatious to the max, but I'm a total and complete cocktease.
Don't get your hopes up.
I do think I'm different than everyone else.
I honestly believe that, even though I know it's not true.
I do know what love feels like. I have been in love.
Schoolwise, I hate math with a passion.
I can't stand the sciences, most of the time.
History is okay, but I LOVE ENGLISH.
Writing is one of my other favorite things.
I love to read things that are worth reading.
In fact, I'm really not a ditz...even though I may seem like it.
Music, however, is my first love.
I dream of being onstage, even though I have terrible stage fright.
I hate it when people claim to hate things just to look cool. Grow up.
I used to be a cutter and I have realized it never made me feel as good as I do now...so it wasn't worth it. I was Straight Edge for four years, but I've come to realize that living by the boundaries and rules of Edge is only an act if you really don't believe in it. I do believe in partying in moderation, but an occasional walk on the wild side only hurts the weak. I'm strong enough to hold my own in instances where my state of mind may be compromised. I'm not an idiot. People who get themselves into regrettable situations in an altered state of mind have nobody to blame but themselves.
I am bisexual, and if you don't like it, get off my profile right now. Don't even think about adding me. I refuse to be associated with people who don't believe in equality for ALL who are in love. I'm really into gay rights and helping to end discrimination so that everyone can live how they want to live. My mother is extremely unwelcoming to my lifestyle and chooses to watch over me like I'm some kind of felon, just because of who I am.
It disgusts me.
If you want to know anything about me at all, I'll probably tell you...
I'm a virgin to almost ALL things sexual.
However, I probably think about sex more than a lot of people who do it every day.
Chances are, if I'm really bored and staring off into space with that look, you know, that look on my face? Yeah. I'm probably thinking about it.
I love getting messages.
Don't disappoint me.
Meeting me could be the best or worst thing
that has ever happened to you.
I'm not undercover about anything at all
because I am up-front, and I'm direct.
I don't take an easy way out and talk about people behind their backs, because I don't need to. I've got too much to do, and not a long enough life to do it.
You're only young once.
Beauty fades.
"I've never seen anyone love makeup as much as you do, or the way that you do, Chelsea."
- Mom.
YES, I wear makeup.
Of course I do. I'm a girl, and makeup interests me.
That's one of the things I wanna do as a career.
Got a problem with it? Too bad.
One side of my family is composed almost completely of cosmetology school graduates [my own mother even attended] a taste for makeup and hair is in my blood. The other side of my family is musical, so the being gifted in both worlds comes naturally; frankly, I couldn't have asked for better genes. I'm addicted to appearances. I'm also a perfectionist. Since nothing can ever be perfect, I know my high standards are my tragic flaw. I can't help but stare at myself in every reflective surface. It's not because I think I'm beautiful, [becauseidon't.] it's because I'm constantly trying to perfect myself. I'm incessantly trying to come up with new ways to change my look. I dye/cut my hair dramatically at times. I believe your appearance should be something that you're proud of. It should be something that expresses everything you feel inside. I want everyone to hear my face. [apparently, I must have a lot to say.] I guess it's somewhat true, what they say...you're attracted to people a lot like yourself. I am extremely attracted to androgynous boys, or guys that wear makeup. I can't really explain it, it's really strange. Androgyny has always fascinated me, even from a very young age. The boundaries of gender are so constricting, so unecessary. Everyone should be able to express themselves, no matter their sex, forever daring to push the envelope and blur the line between femininity and masculinity in a way that comes out as beautiful rather than boy or girl. Beauty has no gender. It has no definition. It is up for interpretation. It is an equal opportunity employer. I love when girls wear way too much eyeliner. I love the final outcome of your taking too long to get ready. It will be worth it to me. I love glamour. I only wish it would love me back.
I see myself as a person with makeup. That's how I feel like I [should] look. I express myself through many different avenues, including my makeup.
Therefore, I don't consider myself fake.
That's that.
It makes me fucking sick sometimes
the way people wanna put themselves into a category, or pretend to like/hate certain things to make themselves cool. I know I'm not cool and I don't care. I like what I like because I like it and I don't give a shit if you think it's "dumb." Yeah, designer shit is great but I think it's stupid as fuck to go out and buy a plain white tee shirt for 100 dollars because it was made by a certain company, when you could get the same thing anywhere else for 10. I think that fashion is what you make it. If you have the confidence and the fucking balls to wear a dress out of paper, you can make it look just as fabulous as a dress spun from threads of pure gold. You can't let your clothes carry you, you have to carry your clothes...or you may as well forget them altogether. Makeup, too. Brushes are great, but sometimes I love to use my hands to apply makeup...I'm not afraid to touch. I believe saving certain things for a special occasion can get boring. Don't waste your time and your money wishing you could wear something, wear it. If you want to do something crazy with your makeup, do it. Show no fear. If something is truly how you feel inside, and you express it outwardly in your appearance, it will never be recieved poorly. Bad fashion happens when people stop listening to themselves. Bad music happens when it doesn't come from the heart.
Life, to me, is about feeling...not thinking. Life is about hearing every wonderful sound and seeing every gorgeous thing out there. It's about exploring and touching and smelling and tasting everything wonderful and exciting. I love love, and I love pain because it's an emotion. I even like physical pain (to a certain extent...) because it makes me feel alive. I'm really emotional and sensitive. The smallest things can make me feel amazing, or tear me to the lowest low. Some people would want to change this because the pain is so unbearable, but the truth is, when something feels good, it's incredible...and I wouldn't have it any other way. I don't plan a lot because I like everything to fall into place as it goes along. I fantasize a lot, but I never plan. Fantasizing is the creative version of thinking. I love it. I don't see myself as an artist, more as a mass of emotion, feeling, sensitivity and color put together to resemble a human. I know I'm gonna do something special in the future...I just don't know what that is yet.
Until then, I'm just living every day to the fullest to try to feel everything I possibly can.
I'm not afraid to admit that I'm enthralled with the lifestyles and customs of those who are different than I am. I want to learn and grow through the knowledge and understanding of other cultures and walks of life, as well as helping people understand my own personal views.
I want people to have an open mind and an open heart. I want to be able to walk down the street and say "hi" to every person I see, and I want them to know my name.
[and they will.]
