im amanda. not much to say about me. i was born and raised in spokane washington. i have 2 older sisters and one brother. i have 2 neices who i love very much. i dont no what i would do if i was not in their lives. i have a mother who i fight with alot we have had are ups and downs but when the day ends and i think about it my family is all i have. i love her very much and i am very proud of who she has become. my mom pretty much raised me and my siblings our whole life by herself. i do have a father but im not sure that dad is the right word for him. he was very abusive towards my mom and sister and never really helped out with us kids i mean ya he pays child support but a whole like 70 dollars for 2 kids. that is bullshit! he never bought us anything unless it was a holiday or something but even then it was pathetic. i dont respect the things he has done and i do love him i just dont care for him. seeing him abuse my family mentally and physically makes it hard for me to find a guy for me. i always seem to pick out the guys who treat me like shit. ya there nice at first but then they turn around and remind me alot of him and i think its cause that is the only type of guy i was use to. it sucks cause i do want to find someone to love me and respect me as i can do the same. anyways, i love my friends with all my heart they have been there for me threw thick and thin and i wouldnt be who i am without them we have been best friends for almost 11 years now and i cannot believe were still as close as ever. i cannot believe how quick the years are going by and to be honest its scary as hell because im not sure what i want to do with my life yet. i love my grandparents very much they helped raise us kids for years and they have helped us soooo very much. i miss my uncle alot i never really had the chance to get to know him after his accident and it hurts cause i wish i did cause now i dont have the chance to. i miss candace with all my heart and i still think about her everyday!!!!! as i look at my life right now im not sure where i am going all i know is that i just have to live everyday to the fullest cause anything could happen. im just going to live day by day and see where my life takes me plus if my life was planned out how boring would that be. I finally found a guy to treat me well and i am so thankful to have him lets just hope things dont turn out like my past relationships