| Here something personal about me... read it if you wanna know who I am... I moved to America in 2007, leaving everyone behind. No, it was not because I wanted, it was because my family was broken apart since years. My parents were fighting forever since i can remember. I had to make my mom leave my dad, he destroyed her over the years; 25 years of marriage for her children was to much for my mom. My mom could not handle it anymore so I left the house and moved away so that she can make the step out of that damaging life. I almost lost my mom once when I was 16 and I could not life anymore if she was gone. Now I left my mom, so that she can start over and can have a new life and that she can start being happy. I might seem amazing but I had to be, I had to be perfect for my mom. She had nobody then me for years. 20 years I was there to hold her and it did not let me grow it made me an adult many many years ago, I guess today I can say to many years ago. Sometimes I wished I could have been a child, having fun laughing and not just pretending to have a perfect life. Not a single one of my friends new, only my best friend did, all others thought my family was perfect because I made my family perfect to everyone, because I hold it together. By holding my family together I let them ripped myself apart. Now my dad and my sister backstab me in the divorce and try to pull my mom down. I lost a sister and a dad and many many friends in 2007 and 2008. My life fall apart and my family fall apart; everything crashed. Nobody was there for me to fall back on and all my friends were like "its just a divorce", only my best friend knew and understood. I was alone, having nobody and I am still alone for most of the time. Even though I have friends, they can not repair what got damaged over the years and they did not find a way yet to repair my heart. Its broken and everyday people backstab me and break it a little more.......... if you wanna know more about me then read my blog: http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.ListAll&friendId=437304136 |
