I'm Amanda Joy, I'm 17. Irish, German, French, Indian. I'm a hardcore vegetarian. I live in Broken Arrow, Oklahoma. i hate it and i wouldn't suggest moving here. I'm a senior this year. If it's my first time meeting you, don't expect a handshake, I give hugs unless im shy. I’m currently trying to focus on schooling and my future, because i have dreams and ambitions i plan on following through on. im pretty sure i'd love to be a teenage cousuler while living in Hollywood, FL. someday my dreams will come true and im going to make it pretty big in this life just watch me. I want to leave Oklahoma, where I’m from, I see one too many idiots who try too hard. It annoys me. Personally, I think I'm not that pretty in person compared to pictures, so that is a fair warning. I pretty much get along with every body because I don't have the heart to be mean if I barely know you. I take promises very seriously... so when you break them, its like ouch! Alot of people make promises they'll never keep but at the time it seems like the right thing to do so you do it. I've changed ALOT this past few months, i cant even explain it, maybe it's just maturity, maybe it's just a phase. the past is the past, and i have just now realized that there's not a whole bunch i can do about it. i have to live with it, but i'm ready to deal with that and i'm ready to move on. i'm ready to be happy again. i know the difference between wrong and right. sometimes i make good decisions and sometimes i make bad ones but i always learn. i'm growing up quicker than you think. i'm still learning how to live my life in a way that works for me. I have a relationship, like the ones you see in movies such as the notebook, only better. I believe that anything is possible and that everything happens for a reason. I want to be someone who won't easily be forgotten, i want to change a life or two. my opinions on things have changed drastically since earlier this year. i'm a different person than when you first met me, but not too different. i do try to find the best in people, sometimes it's tough, but usually i get it out of them. Yes, ive been backstabbed, lied to, hurt. everything in the book. People have broken their promises and walked in and out of my life. i've probobly done the same and dont act like you haven't. there's been a lot of things that have made me who i am today, and a lot of them aren't good, but that doesn't matter to me because if i love where i am now and who i am, then all of those heartbreaks, all of those nights where i just layed out under the stars and talked myself through everything, all of the fights and lost friends, they made me who i am, and it's worth it in the end. Uniqueness is something I look for in a friend. It seems like a lot of people are starting to look alike. i want to be something. i want to be able to tell people how i feel without a second guess. i hate being embarassed, and i hate getting sympathy. the things that i say are usually understatements because i'm too afraid to say what i really mean. i love it when i hear music so beautiful that i feel it in every part of my body, and i can't stop thinking about it. when i look into the mirror, i see a girl who wants to be more than i am right now. i want to stop being afraid of everything. i want to start living. i want to start finding friends who honestly love me and because of who i am. I don’t know who to trust these days, and i don't think i will ever be fully happy like i was again. but i guess i'm going to try one more time to better myself. My life really isn’t that interesting, so if you are one of those people who want to try and ruin it, be my guest. I want to move far far away. I hate everything that consists of drama. I have a big heart that people like to take advantage of i've had plenty people fukc me over and i dont really appreciate it. if you hurt people for the pleasure you're to low to reach, most guys will never understand the concept of not breaking someones heart, they walk around continuously thinking their the Crap with no concern for others feelings. i dont like people; particularly girls; who put themselves down just so they get compliments. i have my good days and my bad days, i get by just fine. i've realized how stupid it is to be something else other then yourself. most kids these days become what other people see, they loose who they are and become someone they swore they'd never be. Music is what I listen to, dance to, cry to, laugh to, and live to. I listen to all kinds of music and I don’t classify myself as anything. I’d rather be a nobody than claim myself as some wannabe. I beleive in fate and love but i beleive love takes two people. I wish everyone would Learn to forget and forgive. if i tell you i love you, i mean it. i will listen to one song over and over again if reminds me of someone, i dont regret anything, I have the ability to tell when im being lied to, dont try to lie to me, i dont fall for it anymore. Everywhere i go, theres always something to remind me of another place and time. http://www.myspace.com/shank_that_skank |
