space4jesus

I am a Christian and this is my Testimony: My Birth: When I was born I was diagnosed with a rare seizure disorder and my parents were told that I wasn't going to live past age five. But it was the faith of a small Baptist Church in my home town of Niles, Michigan that decided to pray for me to be healed, and to this day I am still here because God has a purpose for my life still here on this earth. Growing up in Church: I was basically raised in Church all during my childhood and always thought like most lost Christians do today. That all I had to do is come to Church, sing a few songs, and pay attention in Sunday School to show that I loved Jesus. When I got older like in my teens I really didn't care to much for Church yet I still attended every Sunday when my parents managed to drag me out of bed. I just thought every Sunday that there has to be more to this than just sitting and listing to a boring sermon every Sunday. The Teen Years: As a teenager it was especially difficult because since I had a learning disability I was in special education classes. So anyone who was in special education was almost considered a nerd or an outcast and was either made fun of or bullied. So I got in a lot of fights in Middle School to try and prove that I belonged. Later on I started having a bad attitude and started to become disrespectful to my teachers and my grades started to slip as well. After repeating 7th Grade I was sent to a disciplinary school for about 1 1/2 years after that I was able to return to regular public school. In 10th grade I fell in love with a girl from the middle school who rode my bus. At least I thought it was love. Soon after we started seeing each other we had begun to get into a heavy sexual relationship then when I was about 20 we almost got married and she was still in High School about a Senior I think. I ended up calling it off because she was starting to become very controlling and possessive and I knew I didn't want to start off a marriage off that way. So I decided to break it off. Life as an adult: When I graduated High School I got a job at a nursing home where my mom worked. I was hired help in the kitchen. Just about when I was 20 I started having seizures again and I had to quit my full time job at the home. I had to go on disability because I was no longer able to work a full time job. About age 21 I started drinking and using drugs and staying out late and partying, I got drunk just about every weekend. A lot of times I would get so stoned and so drunk I felt like I either want to die or was gonna die before I woke up the next day. I also started having sex with friends who were male. Another thing I did was dabbling in the occult doing cards and talking to spirits. When I was about 22 I started dating a girl who I went to High school with I started to straighten up a little but I was still lost. After about a month I started screwing up again. About two weeks after that me a my girlfriend at the time was at my house and things were about to get hot and heavy just about the time we were almost ready to take off our clothes my brother called to invite us to Church. Now my brother had started to go for about three weeks before this. So we went that night then I started to take interest in Church that I went to Church the next Sunday morning. The pastor preach a message about salvation and the cross and why Jesus died to keep me from hell. Now I knew all this stuff from growing up in Church, but I think this time it actually sank in that without Jesus I'm lost a headed for hell. So that day I answered the alter call and I lifted up my hands and said Jesus save me. I surrender my life to you and if I'm gonna stop living in this world your gonna have to do this for me because I can't do this on my own. So that day Jesus removed that entire burden of sin that I had been carrying all those years. If you would like to chat sometime I would love to meet ya. also visit me on the web at http://spaceforjesus.com