XxJust_StevenxX

Haha, where to start. I'm fifteen. I'm 5'8", I weigh 140 lbs., I have blue eyes, and my natural hair color is blonde(: Well, I may look average, but inside, i'm definitely not your every-day, average guy. The way I see it, I could die at any second. Something could happen, and I could be gone, just like that.. So, I try to make the most of ever second I have to live, cuz every breath I take is a breath closer to my death. Right now, I'm tyring to find someone to share at least part of my life with, but, its not working out so good. Every girl i think im going somewhere with always seems to either just stop talking to me, or seems to be done with me in general. It sucks. Idk what to say about that, except for let love find you, because its pointless to look for it, because it will come to you when you least expect it, and Im learning that the hard way. My dad and mom are split up, and if you wanna know why, just ask. I'll explain. I live with my mom, and honestly, she's a pretty big bitch. She sent me to rehab in december, and i didn't get out till febuary. I was in there for two fuckin months, and it sucked ass. I have a couple bro's and sisters, but really, the two people in my life that matter most to me are Jason and Tommy. Although my mom wont let me hang out with Jason anymore, just because he smokes weed and all, but he has had a bigger impact on my life than anybody in this world. If it wasn't for him, I probably wouldn't be alive anymore. He got me off of all of the hardcore drugs I was doing, and he got me to stop being so suicidal. He made me realize just how short life is, and how pointless it is to waste it away, being depressed. He helped me see the brightside of everying, and he helped me think positive. He helped me with confidence, and he let me know that I have just as much a chance with anyone, and to do anything in this world as anybody else does. It just all depends on determindation, and motivatoin, and how bad you want it, because if you want it bad enough, you'll get it, somehow, someway. Tommy is the big brother i wouldn't be alive without. He has my back, no matter what the situation. He lets me get shit faced at his house, then babysits, and feeds me. He will beat anybodies ass for me, if i just ask him to. He's an amazing older brother, and my life would suck that much more without him(: I love you, Tommy and Jason, and I'm glad you're both a part of my life. Two things i want more than anything in this world: To fall in love with someone who will fall in love with me, and true happiness. I'll be CONTENT, if I can just find one. I know that if i fall in love with someone who's in love with me, that will bring true happiness, so naturally, i want that more than ANYTHING in this dreaded world, but I'll take either. The age of fourteen was the year I found out what true love really is, and alot happened. I got into the most trouble I have ever gotten into, and i've done the stupidest, silliest, funniest, craziest, most amazing things this year. Kali is my first true love. Alot happened with us, but we never dated. She made me feel the best, and the worste anybody ever has. But, all in all, i would do anything to have those summer days back. The happiest days of my life. My dreams are to be a musician, and to travel the world. See everything there is to see in this world. But, i'm sick of typing, so if you wanna know more, comment or message me. Thanks(: