Sarcastic Leon

EMP rocks :) Dont be a hater, ppl. if you dont like us, that is not our problem.... its your problem. So jst be nice n show ur mercy :) I am different than a lot of people. I will be sad easily for no reason sometime. i love my friends more than anything in the world. They keep me here.They are the reason why i am living in this world. If it weren't for them i wouldn't be here at all. I am trying to be nice, but sometime i cannot be.. because ppl keep annoying me. I will upset to something or someone easily. Sometime, I feel like lonely, frustrating or melancholy. But its all good, they are not bad feeling as hell. basically, I am comfortable with these feelings. I prefer to fall into these ways than others. I think I am really delicate character. I hate liar more than anything. wish they would be stop doing that. I try to stay out of them as much as possible. I am always seeking answer for life or something...cuz i believe there is always answer. but I dont believe answers are answer. it must be answer, but it should not be answer sometime. i know it doesnt make any sense. Anyway, i usually do exercise every day, I keep staying in healthy. so i wont be fat, or get serious illness. I like to meet new ppl, visit new place, find new thing. I honestly jealous birds. They can fly to everywhere... wish i had wings or ability to fly without high-technology machine or something. I find place for sitting then i will think about it. if i was something, if i could do something, if i did that day. however i know its not gonna happen. I often consider past of my life. I formerly played basketball in states all star team until i got horrible injury. Its when i was in Jr high school. I missed those days. I would give up forever to see those days. I should rely on God and Jesus. I was not spiritual teenager, well i dont know i am spiritual now. but obviously i now am way better than those days. Perhaps, God made me up in this way. I have met bunch of and different kind of spiritual ppl. It makes me more considering. I am growing well,at the same time, i am struggling,i guess. cuz my feeling is complicated. I am different than a lot of people. I'll be stooped tomorrow if I don't leave as them both the same. But I dont know enough, I get some kinda lazy day. I dislike ppl who keep bossing. I dont get why they keep doing it and what positive points are. Its just ridiculous and easy to loose friends. I wish there was never never never land in this world. It is sort of sad to get old to me. I am scared to get old already. wish 16 forever. I play any kind of sports, such as baseball, basketball, volleyball, soccer and football. When i was kids, I wanted to be sports player. that is what most kids want to be. Most people has changed mind, because life is not easy like that. Now i dont want to be big in this world. Actually, Everyone is big in this world. Everyone is different than other ppl. This is what it is. I have a great family as not usual( two older sisters, dad, mom and dog. he is technically my brother. I feel it and he also feels it.) I proud of them. I love them because they love me. sometime its hard to show love to them. I have a violent quarrel with them. There is still love between me and them. I know how to communicate with my friends. I know how to make my friends lough. I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain. It feels weird. Maybe I am seeking something in the rain. I have to listen music lonely at least 1 hours everyday. I cannot tell why, just because i have to. It is probably a space filled with serenity. So I will feel restful. I like to see stars in calm by myself. I must be alone then, because i wont feel talking to anyone. Stars are beautiful and shiny. Its worth to watch them. I dont know about my future. Generally,nobody knows about future. But I am afraid of it. What do I suppose to be when i grow up. I have some ideas, but i dont think its good idea. I stay up late rather than wake up early morning. I wish i would wake up early morning. But every time I stay up late, so i cant wake up earlier. I am uncomfortable with teacher who rely everything on computer(technology) during the class. Its absolutely cool. Yet, I personality dont like that kind of class system. IF you are BAA student, you know who i am taking about.