IM NOT EMO IM JUST ME SO STOP LABELING ME AS IT OR W.E LOTS OF THINGS ARE MISPELLED DONT MAKE SINCE IF YOU DONT LIKE IT GET OVER IT IF YOU DONT UNDERSTAND ASK About me .... hmmm here i go It's not what you read its what you understand So if your reading this i guess your wanting to know about me :I am the one who is painted in the picture but not for i am not who you see me to but some thing different. You see me as some one I'm not for you do not know me past skin deep I am the gitl who is afraid to say what she really means whats on her mind and all the different things she hides what she feel she covers it up by being some one shes not but if she lets you in dont just stand there open the door cause this is a chance of a life time and you would be one in a million to get that opportunity when she lets you in open the door go on in and meet the real me do you understand what i am saying ? I am the canvas painted right in front of you what makes me despse myself most is how i cant let just any one in you see i been hurt to many times as a child and as of now when i was nine i blocked my self apart from this world and made another me you see i am trapped in a world of class fragile but hard if you cant understand this read down ... but reli im reli up front but when all alone and traped inside i hide behind the four walls that suround my heart little things you should kn if you read my profile i must say you wasted your time im not that speacial. But here i go ... I'm a little to forward about things and if you go on readin you'll find out what i mean. Yeah you could call me a freak its cool i dont reli care its just a label ill get over it. Um i love to play sports and meet new people. My passion in life... music , writing meeting new people... and God ... ok yes i said God the G-O-D yeah ok before you shut me out and not get a chance to know me i sugest you don't im not like most christians at all. Christians what does that even mean these days ask and ill tell you my deff but i bet you wont. But give me a chance hey you never know we might become close! Really i dont even know what to write... and i'm not just gonna tell you people what you wanta hear im me my own person if you dont like it get over it and tell me cause i would like to know why. Well this is boring read on to get to know me better and how dumb i am well loves ... LOVE MUSIC??? skip to bottom and read little chorus or crap that i write if you like ask for the whole thing i just ask you dont steal em ... smiles if you do it might already be taken i like to write songs for my fav bands and ask them to sing em which some do ... loves My take on love -love is the most beautiful tragedy of life it feels so right yet it hurts so much,i love to hate love for it kills me inside,its eating my inside and my brain, for i am numb dieing alone in a world,unknow i shall go into a place where all is said in done and when i die i can finally say, im home my coffin awaits for .... blah bla blah who cares what i think smiles lol ... I don't wanta fall in love cause when i do i fall hard so hard i fall on my face smashing into the concrete Bam yeah i kn, and it hurts to much too many people throw it around like its a rag doll .. so really what is love to society ? is it love or lust ??? Skip around read what you want i write alot... My take on life - Life can be amazing gorgeous and undescribable but then again it can be hell misaerable and horid... It depends what are you lookin at the creation of life or what we humans done to this world its our faults the world is the way it is wanta kn more of what i think ask.... Past Me : I have problems I was suicidal , I'm straight up i dont want some one to fall in love or be friends with some one im not, I scare people , I dont like being liked by most people and if your one of them you'd know or maybe you wouldnt i reli dont show it but if you ask ill tell you straight up yes or no so go for it doesnt mean i hate you i just dont like you and if you ask ill tell you why. I havnt cut in 1 year 3months woooooo who go me ! I'm trying to get back with God yes i do cuss i do lie when my friends are in trouble i dont when its me , but who doesnt do some kinda sin im not perfect but im trying and im sorry if ive ever hurt you thats not who i am any more so yeah loves this lost child New Me: God has been with me all of my life. He's changed me and made me new. He is my all in all the IT in my life. No one could ever take his place. He is number one ! i know I havn't been the one to Live for christ. But in all things in christ are made new and I been changing over the years and now I strive to walk By christ. I know im not perfect never will be. But with God all things are possiable and I am changing I love you guys so much you cant compare! JOHNNY OMG WHAT DO I GOTS TO SAY ARGO I DKN HES AMAZING Till the moon disapears and the stars dont shine untill the music stops and my heart stops beating i will wallways be yours !!! ... just a fairy tail ife ish just a lie dreams are nothing but a thing you can never have love is nothing with out some one to never say their sorry .... love i kn it hurts and you may not understand how i kn i been there to just like you i cant say i had the same feelings as you but i got it through and so can you love now take his hand and try to forget all of this pain for its just a devils game try to remember all the good things that happen be happy i kn she wouldnt want you too be sad MUSIC! None i took them off WRITINGS MAKES NO SINCE NEVER REDID THEM ... PROBABLY NEVER WILL TILL READY TOO ... i like to write bits and pieces and put em together makes no since ask ... I lie here in dead silence waiting for this nightmare to end as its beginning starts to begin I cant find myself with in this dream were there is no walls but boundries were am i will i ever escape this dream of mine oh how devine this tree of leaves... i created myself to be on my own but i didnt expect to be alone did you create yourself to be on your own these are some reasons things should left unknown ... I am but a night mare waiting to bloom into a master pieces I am but a lost girl trapped in a forbidden cold world no where to spread my wings searching for but a touch of true love music is my life and all i have left in this dark cold cruel world What lies behind these dark cold eyes shall never be broken for this enchanting spell is just to strong for this moral world i lay at night. the pain that i hide behind my vacant eyes shall never show or rest I lie here in dead silence waiting for this nightmare to end as its beginning starts to begin I cant find myself with in this dream where there is no walls but boundries were am i will i ever escape this dream of mine oh how devine this tree of leaves... TOO MY CLOSES FRIENDS LOOK UP IF YOUR LOOKIN FOR MUSIC OR W.E If tomorrow starts without me, And I'm not there to see, If the sun should rise and find your eyes All filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn't cry The way you did today, While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say. I know how much you love me, As much as I love you, And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand, That an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand, And said my place was ready, In heaven far above, And that I'd have to leave behind All those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye, For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die. I had so much to live for, So much left yet to do, It seemed almost impossible, That I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad, I thought of all that we shared, And all the fun we had. If I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while, I'd say good-bye and kiss you And maybe see you smile. But then I fully realized, That this could never be, For emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me. And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss some tomorrow, I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow. But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home. When God looked down and smiled at me, From His great golden throne, He said, "This is eternity, And all I've promised you." Today your life on earth is past, But here life starts anew. I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last, And since each day is the same way, There's no longing for the past. So when tomorrow starts without me, Don't think we're far apart, For every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart " I LOVE TO REPEAT MYSELF MAKE MYSELF CLEAR SKIP AHEAD Plane and simple I'm not perfect! yes I do cuss I do screw up but who doesn't? Seriously when some one messes up we all just seem to gossip or point and stare and talk about all their flaws when really we need to look at our selves who are we to laugh at others and judge them ? Every one is their own person i know but not every one thinks the same looks the same react the same and act the same. If we were the same i think life would be pretty boring. Every one seems to screw up at a point or another and sin but hey we arnt perfect thats not who god made us to be. Also I'm sorry if i have ever hurt you or offend you. Thats not who I am any more i am changing like i said im not perfect and i do make mistakes and well now i think i will take my responsibility's of them and my reaction well love yas your sis beth ............................ i always put a nicce touch to death hey what can i say its my job ... dont kn me dont ask dont assume God is most amazing thing in my life. I could never ever made it through with out him ! he's all i want and he's all I'll ever need! GOD is the it in my life and he has changed me and made me new and now I walk by faith and for ever i will ... About past me : I have problems I'm suicidal , I scare people , I dont like being liked by most people and if your one of them you'd know. I havnt cut in 14months oooooo who go me ! I'm trying to get back with God yes i do cuss i do lie but who doesnt do some kinda sin im not perfect but im trying and im sorry if ive ever hurt you thats not who i am any more so yeah loves this lost child Past</center></center> --------------------------------
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