averynomnomamor<3

Wow. What to say. I can go on all day but you will never know me. Sometimes, I'm just lost. And I don't know where I am headed or even where I am now for that matter. The world over whelms me when I see how powerful people really are. And i'm scared to enter in this planet as an adult. I am afraid to be old and decrepit. I really just want a boy that will be here and guide me. And defend me, so I have no fears. And I am seeing someone, maybe he's the one for right now. I hope so. He's truly a genuine boy. I love to write and draw. I write poems and short stories mostly, but right now I am working on an actual novel and it's coming together quite nicely. Things can get me down easily sometimes, but most of the time I ignore people; I am never the person to yell and insult someone. No matter how many times you call me a bitch or a whore, I shall not offend you back. I'm to mature for those silly pointless battles that just end in more turmoil than when they first began. I'm short, and I have a unique style. I get "scene" a lot and I guess I agree. The funny thing about me is that i laugh at those same children. Every day is a holiday to me. As long as I end happy I have had a good day. And recently I have been having many holidays. Because it seems more days end happily. And more dreams are reassuring. And I am feeling less disoriented and more on track. But at the same time I am holding on for my dear sanity, it seems to be slipping away as well. But as my mind un-hinges it opens up. And I am learning, learning how to muddle through these times in which I need more support and an ear to talk to. I just pray, pray and pray that he will stay and open up my life. Because right now, I don't have one. But him, he, himself will take me away. Show me the way. And light my way like he is doing now. as I lose my mind and myself I am grasping onto everything else and I can diverge deeper into my soul than ever before, and for that I am thankful. Well, on to more of the basics, I am extremely outgoing. I can make friends with the personnel at virtually any child friendly store, I can run and sing and dance around big department stores and I can talk to every one of my classmates even the ones I do not know. Music, where would I be without it. Ha, I don't wish to know. My nails are never one color, for that is not enough. I love wearing more than ten rings at one time, and sometimes I wear ponytails for rings. I'm unique and rare. and i do not appreciate being compared to anyone, because I am myself and like no other. I'm a firecracker that needs to be lit, because I am only sparking invalid_textbody {background-image:url('http://i128.photobucket.com/albums/p165/charmroyal/layouts/scene/102.gif'); background-attachment:fixed; background-position:top left; background-repeat:repeat;}invalid_text get your own layout here.