You better not leave the internet. I feel like how you probably are thinking of me right now. I'm an asshole. Because I didn't have time to talk to my best friend. When it seems that I always have time for everyone else. I feel extremely terrible about it. And I would have talked to you as soon as I finished cleaning. I got in to a fight with my mother about it today, I even locked her out of my room. God knows I would have much rather have talked to you for hours on end to help you. But I cant take any of it back now. Today has been such a shitty day since the moment I woke up until and beyond now. Because you're gone, and maybe even for good. You know how much I need you, and I know how much you need me. Thats why I feel like crawling in to a ditch and dying. Because when you were in need and reaching out, I wasn't there for you. I'm sorry. Even Fran is mad at me today. So that makes, You, Fran and my mother who are all mad at me. I should have just told you to talk about while I was cleaning and come back to it like I normally do. And now, because I was stupid, I could have lost my best friend. If you get this. Please come back online. I'll talk.
