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- Aaron Gillespie hi, i'm sammie. it doesn't matter what this says, you've already made your assumptions about me. these are the last notes of a fading love song whose words are losing their meaning a little more every day. and i wouldn't be surprised if its all over by tomorrow. so for all of you people out there in search of a moment of clarity you can be sure its never coming. and i would be a liar if i said it never crossed my mind to kill every single one of you just so i could hear you scream. but maybe the saddest part of life is that behind every person who is dying stands a long line of ones who never got a chance to live. and even if you could reach out and touch the cold hard shell i've wrapped my flesh in you would still never see that it was made to protect me from you. well what more could you expect from the world. from the blindfolded fools who grab at the stars while they spit at the sun. but never seem to be able to pick each other up off the ground when they fall. and with fingers pointing in every direction we look for someone to take the blame for everything. when will you learn to stand on your own two feet. open up your eyes and see that what you have isn't half as bad as what you deserve because not one among us is innocent. and sadder still is that we believe unconditionally that if we pour out our hearts like water, our sacrifice will be returned some day. no light will ever shine on us until we can wash our hands of the past. no light will ever shine on us as sure as angels will never come to save the devil. i make a bigger deal out of things then they really are. i get jealous too easily. i swear too much. i care too much about the way i look. i'm way too insecure. i never think i'm good enough. i wear too much makeup. i over analyze things. i have trouble talking about my problems, or how i feel. i always fall for the wrong guys. i need music to feel whole. i love editing pictures. i spend too much time on the computer. i would die without my friends. i'm a perfectionist. i'm generally nice to everybody. i cry a lot. i can come off like a bitch. i have a really great boyfriend. i wish i was more outgoing. i hate talking on the phone. i can't keep a good conversation going for my life. i can't stand it when people repeat things. jessie macmillan, bev butterwick, mackenzie martin, chris redshaw, jacob ferrara, noah cyr, shannon steeves, jade fitzgerald, jess hirst, micheal leroy, stacy peacock, starlee king, zack beales, amendah dixon, amanda harper, taylor lee, natalie smith, emily benham, jessie bloxom, andrew soave, dylan case, and fergal jennings these people mean the world to me. i hate that you're not here with me every single second. there's this one boy. he's amazing in every single way and i love him with all my heart. Saturday December 8th, 2007. (081207) Contact me? AIM diverserose MSN kinkfest@hotmail.com Myspace Here Darkstarlings Here MAKE ME A SIGN! And i'll make you one aswell, if you want! (: |
